Not Just a High School Romance (LxLight)

Chapter 8

Author's Note:
Hey guys, sorry about the way this chapter ends, but I did what had to be done. :( This story needs to end. I don't have the inspiration or the want to write this story anymore.Thank you to all the readers who stuck with me through this insane ride. Sorry my writing sucks and I can't seem to write a happy story to save my life, but I'm moving on to bigger and better things! Hopefully I will eventually write an original story or something, but in the meantime I just wanna end this story.
With Love,
Jay

~o0o~

We just sat there and cried for a long time, neither wanting to move away from the other. I eventually spoke, ruining our little moment of silence,
"I love you so much and I don't want to leave you, but this is too much for me to handle. I've got to go somewhere and clear my head."
I took a deep breath and stood up. I grabbed a shirt and a pair of pants and headed to the bathroom. I spent a long time in the shower just letting the hot water run over my body, relaxing me and taking away all of my cares. I thought about my life and my life with Light. I relived all of our happy memories and all of our sad ones. After a long time of thinking I let my mind wander to thoughts of the future. Did I even have a future with Light? Did I have a future without him? The steady rush of water began to run cold as I stood in the shower. I stepped out with a plan in mind,
"Light?"
I called out as I cracked open the bedroom door. He was lying on his back staring blankly at the ceiling. I moved to the bed and laid down next to him. He turned to me, looking at me with red puffy eyes,
"I'm sorry... I don't know what I'm doing anymore."
"It's okay."
Another tear slipped down his cheek and I moved closer to him, pressing myself into his side,enjoying the warmth of another human being,
"Light?"
"Yeah."
"I wanna stay here forever. I want to make things better again."
He didn't answer, he just sighed and put his arm around me. He stroked my hair and eventually fell asleep. I moved his arm out of the way and sat up, debating in my head whether this was really worth it. Do I have a future with him or not? Can I fix this? No. The answer to all of my questions hit me. I couldn't help Light. I don't know if anyone could. I couldn't deal with all of this right now. I curled back up next to Light, letting my tears flow freely.

~o0o~

I woke up to Light still sleeping. I had a headache from all of my crying. I needed to pull myself together enough to get done what I needed to get done. I sat up, careful not to wake Light. I took the Death Note and pen in my hand. This is the last time I'm gonna use this thing... I opened to the first page with free space and almost screamed.
"Light!"
I scrambled back over to him on the bed and shook him. "No! No! Wake up! Dammit! Light Yagami! How could you do this to me!?"
I shook him trying to get him to wake up. I shook the cold, lifeless body until I was ready to collapse.
"Please... please don't leave me alone... I can't be alone..."
I looked back over to the Death Note and read the page again,
Light Yagami dies peacefully in his sleep.
I picked up the book again and wrote down one final thing. I laid down next to my dead boyfriend and kissed him one last time, closing my eyes.
Ryuzaki Lawliet dies in his sleep.

"These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume."
-Shakespeare