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Who I Am is what I hate

Vector's POV

I think you all know who I am.
It's Vector one of the seven barians and the last person you can trust.

Before I hurted everyone of Yuma's friends but Yuma manage to stop me. Even if he tried to become friends with me.

I refused because I don't make friends. I just end up hurting them.

One day in Barian World.

I was minding my own business sitting alone at the cliff. When one of the seven barains named Alito, came up to me.

The first thing he said was "hey! Vector why are you here all alone?" he said with concerns.

I scolded at him "Like you'd care"

Alito gave me an angry look "Hey! No need to get angry I just thought maybe we could hang out." I looked at him confused and thought why does he want to hang out with me after what I did to him?

I started walking away from him but no matter where I go Alito is always following me like a lost dog.

This is so annoying. How long does he plan on following me?

I told Alito "Alito I'm busy today, so can you stop following me?"

Alito replied "Doing what? Sulking all day? Because that's all you've been doing" I got mad, he thought I was sulking? Over what?!

I walked passed him "Look it's none of your business what I do so leave me alone!"

Then Alito patted me in the head "Vector I know you hate yourself because of what happened but I want to be your fri-!?"

"Like you know how I feel! If you we're my friend, you'll just hate me like everyone else does" I ran off and teleported myself in Heartland city so I could be alone.

When I got there it was night time in Heartland. Which I was fine with it, I took a walk in the buildings roof and sat down to watch the Heartland city lights.

I sighed. Why am I always like this? I thought about how I treated Alito, I mean he wasn't hurting anyone.

Sometimes I wish I died at the time when I was the evil prince. Of course I knew Don Thousand was controlling me but I still couldn't forgive myself.

I changed that day on.

Now I trick anyone to get their trust then stab them in the back just to get what I want.

But I've always dislike what I did to others like how I act, How I treat people, and how no one can accept me. Like anyone could care less about a jerk who can't be trusted.

In my situation it's similar to a bad habit that I can't get rid of. That's just who I am and what I hate about myself.

Its not like anyone is going to save me from myself. I'm always one of the seven barians who is always alone.

Alito is better off not being my friend. I'm doing him a huge favor, which I don't do. Besides I don't need friends and I'll just end up hurting them.

I was born to be alone so I don't hurt anyone.

In the end it's only me by myself.

"Vector"

I turned around quickly to see who it was that called my name. It was just Alito, wait he came after me?

Alito said having trouble breathing "I...f-found...you...ha.." was Alito running after me? Why?

I felt like testing him a bit so I said "Aw!~ don't tell me you missed me that much, Al-Chan!~"

Alito shouted "Don't call me Al-Chan!" he looked so flustered which annoyed me.

As usual I acted like a jerk and said "I didn't ask you to find me and don't you have Tori to chase after"

I saw the look at Alito's face, he was blushing like crazy and said "Y-Yeah but I'm here looking for you"

I tilted my head in confusion "Looking for me? Why?"

A few silence passed because Alito didn't how to answer my question or he just doesn't have an answer.

I started walking passed him but the he grabbed my hand. "Hey! Do you mind letting your filthy hands off me?!"

Alito finally said "Vector! I want to be your friend!" he looked at me, and I looked at him.

His eyes. There so serious this means Alito really wants to be my friend but why?

"Why....?"

Alito looked at me confused "What do you mean 'why?' I just thought you looked lonely so I-!?"

I interrupted Alito by gripping on his collar shirt and yelled at him "ARE YOU GIVING ME PITY!? Why of all people would you want to be friends with me!? I don't understand why? Why!? Why me you idiot!?" while I said that my eyes were filled with tears.

I was crying.

Why am I crying for nothing? But the strangest thing is I find myself being hugged by Alito. Was he comforting me?

Somehow when Alito embraced me I felt a lot calmer than earlier. Its like magic, I don't know how Alito can make others feel this relaxed.

Alito told me "You know just because you did all those things doesn't mean I have to hate you because what matter is now and right now I want to be your friend. I'm serious!" he wants to be my friend?

He hugged me even tighter which made me feel weird inside. Wait! What!? Something is wrong with me? I really feel something inside my chest. Oh no...

I push Alito away and said "Yeah right! Like I'd be friends with you! I don't need friends so do me a favor and get lost!-!?" I covered My mouth from my words.

And I know My words hurt Alito based on his sad look. I took steps back away from Alito and ran off somewhere far away from him.

Damn it! Damn it! I'm such an idiot! Why do I always hurt anyone that tries to get close to me!

Alito could have been my first friend but now I go and ruin like I always do!

Why can't I be nice to someone for once in my life?! I can never be happy with anyone and no one could be happy with me around.

I hate myself.
I hate what I'm doing!

Who I am is what I hate!

A/N:
Michelle is My name.

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