Blue Exorcist one shots

𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮... (Rin Okumura x gn! Reader)/hurt/comfort

The moon shines through your curtains into your dorm room as you keep tossing and turning in your bed. Another sleepless night. Something you have gotten very used to over the last couple of weeks as your mental health has slowly been declining over that time.

After some time of tossing and turning you give up in trying to fall asleep, just accepting that this is going to turn into another one of your sleepless nights. You're laying flat on your back, mindlessly staring up at the blank white ceiling of your dorm room.

You grab your phone off of the nightstand and check the time. 1.43 am. Great. You have the entire night ahead of you and you have nothing to do.

Usually you'd have homework to do or a test to study for, so you'd sit up and do that to pass the time. But you didn't have any upcoming tests nor had your teacher given out any homework that needed to be completed.

And so, you're left all alone in your bed with nothing but your self destructive thoughts.

It feels like time is passing slower than normal until you hear knocking on your dorm door. You turn your head towards the door, propping yourself up on your elbows. You already know who is on the other side of the door.

You sigh and slowly get out of bed. You slowly walk to your door and open it. On the other side is Rin standing with a sheepish smile and a faint blush on his face.

Even after almost a year of dating, Rin still gets a little awkward and sheepish every time he comes over. Rin is also well aware of your mental health problems and always tries his best to help you as much as he can. You have told him multiple times that he doesn't have to, but Rin keeps insisting that it's his duty as your boyfriend to help you.

"Hey," he says somewhat sheepishly, "Thought you'd be up."

"What are you doing? It's late, you should be asleep," you tell him, "I can say the same to you," the blue haired boy responds. You sigh and let out a small laugh, "Can't sleep."

"Yeah, though as much," Rin says. "May I?" He asks with a small smile and you step aside to let your boyfriend in. After Rin has stepped inside you close the door. The blue haired boy takes your hands and brings you to your bed. He sits down with you. There's a moment of silence, and Rin takes a moment to look at you. He looks and notices how your hair is disheveled and unkept, the bags under your eyes, and how your skin is unusually pale. To Rin, you look sick. "You should really sleep and take care of yourself," says Rin, to which you let out a small chuckle, "It's easier said than done."

You sigh and Rin sighs along with you. There's a long pause before you say, "I just don't know how long I can keep going," your voice shake as you speak.

You feel numb, like you've been running on autopilot for several weeks straight, and you're getting tired of it. You just want it all to end. To break this constant downward spiral and let yourself finally be put to rest. But at the same time you don't want to leave Rin. He's helped you so much during the last few weeks, and leaving him feels cruel. But the facade you have built up is slowly breaking in front of your boyfriend.

Tears welling up in your eyes as everything over the last couple of weeks finally becomes too much. You let out a few sniffles, catching the attention of the boy sitting next to you. Rin looks at you with a surprised expression, and his eyes slightly widened. He blinks a few times, seemingly not knowing what to do. But the boy's expression quickly changes to one of sympathy. He didn't want to see you this way. In fact, he hates it.

Rin wants to comfort you, so he moves closer to you and wraps his arms around you. "Hey, you've been doing great so far. It's only temporary," he says, doing his best to comfort you. You lean into his touch, letting your tears fall freely.

Everything over the last few weeks had become too much and you couldn't keep it together anymore. Rin just stays there, holding you. He was never really good with comforting people, but he's trying for your sake.

Rin lets you cry, staining his shirt with your tears. And despite Rin being a bit of a dumbass he knows better than to try and stop your crying. He knows you need to let everything out.

After some time you slightly pull yourself away from him. Tears are still streaming down your face. And in a moment of vulnerability you say;

"I promise," you sniffle, "I'll live for you." Rin's eyes widen in surprise at your sudden confession.

"You're my reason for leaving... So I'll try... Just for you..."