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Early in the morning the first the thing K said was that he wanted to go home
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"What do you need from there tell me and I will go get it for you ?"
Fuma replied trying to change the unpleasant topic
Even tho he knew what the older was upsut about but chosed to neglect his feelings
"I just want to go home "
K repeated, feeling down
He looked sadder than yesterday
But Fuma acted like he was def
If he can't change his stubborn mind he will ignore it
It's not easy for him either, He waited two years for K and he will not let go of him easily just because he started whining suddenly
"I am late for work"
but..!"
"We will talk about this later when I am back!" before he walked through the main door
And made K look like he was asking for his permission
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K shouldn't have waited that long for him to come
There was more than one problem to solve and he doubted they would ever talk about them together
Some things just aren't supposed to eb forgiven
Anyone else in his place would have run away from a maniac like fuma when he could have,
Yet K miserably stayed
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"Why are you staring at me like that, come on start eating"
K slightly opened his mouth but stayed silent
He can't do it
And he didn't touch his food at all which made it more obvious
he looked like he was hit by a truck of reality
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Something happened to him while the younger was gone
Fuma sighed as he reached to grape K's hand
"D-don't touch me" but the older acted distant from him as if he turned into his enemy suddenly
"Yudai!" Fuma was disliking this new attitude
For him K was being too moody and spoiled
"I can't stay in this house with you anymore" K admitted after gathering his thoughts
Fuma calmly wiped his mouth with a towel
"You can't do without me" and told him as chil as he was
" Who are you to tell me what I can do and can't!" His words seemd to anger K
"Look at you ? You are handicapped
You can't do basic chores how will you manage your life alone hm?"
"I won't let you go" he said firmly in order to get it through K's thick brain
Then stood up from the table
And every inch of K's body noticeably started shaking
Fuma stood behind him and took both k's hands in his, moving the right one to grab the knife and the fork with the other one
Helping him slice his food
K clenched his fists refusing to coperate with the move and fought back against Fuma's strong grips
"Au ..gh ..let go!"
Until Fuma decided to let go by himself
While the younger tried to stay calm as he watched the older slightly panting
"Do you even love me?!" K asked in an accusatory way with a tone filled with anger
"Ofcourse.... " He grabbed the older from the chin to look at him directly
"I love you, I love you so much "
The older closed his eyes painfully
how could he say it that easily, even after what he did to him
For K fuma's confession was still invalid !
"What are we even ?" The older said almost in a whisper
"You are my everything !"
"What am I to you K ?"
Ever since they met, K's heart beat in a ridiculous way for the younger, he couldn't hold back and fell in love with him again even stronger than before, he is too tired from suppressing his own feelings
But after finding the truth
What can Fuma possibly mean for him?
A selfish man who broke his lover to make him stay
What is his merit in his heart?
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"You got nothing to say ? Really??"
"This is who you are K!
You are empty...!
And you still want answer to question you can't answer yourself!"
K's eyes started tearing for the second time today
"Fuma !"
"I will get you home tomorrow you don't need to sing the same song every time!" Fuma raised his voice sounding pissed
"Fuma let me explain!"
K knew he shouldn't be feeling guilty,
Fuma has done worse but why he still can't hold him accountable!!!
"You can't blame me! You made it hard..
"I am making it hard for you??"
"Lately... I feel like you made me stay and expected from me to sleep with you just for yourself, I waited from you to tell me the truth but you still didn't!!"
This is your excuse??"
"I kept you here because I didn't want you to need anything from anybody
And this is how you think of me? Am I now a man who took advantage of you??
"No no Fuma I am sorry !" K cupped his own face and started crying, now its worse he messed up so badly for running his mouth in a stupid way
This only resulted for him to be left alone and fuma going away with it.
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Fuma had sent a driver to bring K to his own apartment that night
And he refused to bid his lover even good bye nor to see him out
And Just like that, they seemed to put a temporary end to their love story
Untill they meet again...
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