I haven’t vacuumed in days.
Your unwashed shirt remains in my bed,
At night, it helps me cradle my rotting heart.I haven’t dusted the top of the refrigerator in weeks,
Your handwritten notes now covered in cobwebs.
I read them from time to time, whenever the ache
caused by your absence gets a little too much.I haven’t cleaned the kitchen sink in months.
Your favorite bread knife now covered in rust;
I tried to use it once, to scrap the remnants
of you and me from my skin, I failed.I haven’t scrubbed my back in years.
I can still feel your fingertips, gently tracing my spine.
It has been years since the last time we touched.There’s something dirty about heart aches
And I was never dirty,
But after you…
I can no longer be clean.Even in scraps and dusts
For you I would settle,
Just so I could preserve you,
Just to prove to me that you were real.—even in dust
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