I told him about my family,
About their strictness, About me doing pardah, and everything i could possibly write with my shaking hands while my tears drips down on the phone, he then said "no wonder you have the habit of apologizing everytime, you can trust me" he always says "don't apologise" weird but it always felt comfortable, he then said
"Allah hifazat karega na humari, to kiya hua apke parents strict h, haar nahi manege hum" why did he said something like this, weren't we just friends? I don't know but it gave me some sort of strength.
As time passed we were already in September,
One day i casually mentioned Ahil in my convo with izmi, she didn't knew that I was talking to him, she was so shocked and said "Aarvi are you sure? He is basir's bestfriend" her expression threw me off the boat, I replied "what's there to be sure of? He is just my friend"
" Just my friend, I wish I didn't made him my friend"
I replied her smiling in an awkward manner, usually izmi is not strict about having male friends, she herself is talking to someone, but then she said "He is BASIR'S bestfriend!!!! What if he is taking revenge on you for rejecting him?" The question she asked a
made my heart sank, after realising my silence she said "Aarvi block him, it's not too late, and don't think it would hurt him"
"Don't think it would hurt him?" How can I not think about it? How?, I looked at her with disbelief and replied "How can I? What if he's not?That would probably hurt him and i don't want to hurt him!" My eyes widened, heart beating a little too fast, a ringing sound in my ears, but izmi was stubborn she said "it's either him or me" i couldn't choose him over someone who stood by side for this long, i decided to block Ahil and confirmed this to izmi, that day in school i couldn't focus on anything else other than "how can I?".
After coming back to my house, I checked my insta there were 4 messages from Ahil i ignored them but then again this thought "How can I after promising that our friendship will be our cure"
I convinced myself by saying things like "Aarvi it's haram and you know it very well, what would your future husband think if he gets to know that you used have a male friend" somehow this gave me enough strength to block him and I did, i.........did.
I couldn't conceal my guilty of breaking my friendship with Ahil without giving out any reason to him, i deleted the chats and insta, I tried my best not to think about it.
I joined several couching both online and offline to keep my mind off.
October went like a cold breeze, never in my entire life I ever felt this emotion which izmi described as guilt, entire October he didn't tried to contact me and I had already put an end to it,
But little did I know what was coming for me.
YOU ARE READING
From Dandelions to Tulip
RomanceA transition Aarvi didn't wanted but destiny had planned. A story which depicts today's reality about relationship, Slice of Life yet beautiful and pure. You wouldn't regret reading this.
