From Dandelions to Tulip

Chapter 6

It was the start of November, a comfort month,
That's what I thought, dumb.
We were having tea in the evening and my father announced us that we are going to attend a function in Nainital on 16th of this month, it took me by suprise because he seldom attends function, but I did not wanted to go, there were several reasons for me to not go including the pressure of studies, I mustard up all my courage and asked him if I can stay at home and prepare for my up coming exams, he said
"You and your mind need break to function properly, don't push yourself harder than you could bear" for the first time I heard some soothing words from him, tho my relationship with my father is really good to the point that I am the very first in my family generation to join gym and shooting classes, after my 12th I'll be joining shooting classes because they don't accept minors.
What my father said to me felt a little too familiar but not from him but from Ahil, suddenly all the flashbacks started hitting me, this made me feel anxious, why would I think of something that I had long forgotten?
A strange feeling struck in my heart which I never knew existed in my chest, A blurred thought about him, a picture that seemed to have made its place in my mind, but i didn't want to think about him because I knew thinking about him will do me no good.

Day passed,

I was done for the day, done with studies, done with house chores, planning next day, all my adhkars everything, it was the same time when I used to sleep before, before when I started to talk to him, but then he wasn't there, it was strange actually, why was i thinking like that when I knew it was just a fling and nothing else, just a fling.
There is no was that I could possibly catch feelings for anyone because

"The fire can't touch me
For I have been burned one too many
Times,
And the sea can't harm me
For I have been drowned all my life,
But you.....you could rip my heart open
For I have never known love before."

Today was last day of my studies because from tomorrow onwards me and my mother will start doing preparation for the trip and the wedding, I tried to sleep but i couldn't, all the things me and Ahil have talked about started coming in my mind, like a storm that can't be avoided at any cost, among all of the memories one of them broke the peace of my mind, it was when I said to him "Ahil my parents are strict" and he replied "To kiya hua madam humari friendship ki hifazat Allah karega, Trust me"

"Lekin Allah haram ki hifazat ku karega, I was too dumb"

Then all i could think of was "how can I do this to someone who had nothing for me but love and care" but still taking to him or thinking about him doesn't make sense to me after all HARAM can never bring peace.
I went to sleep realising that if my parents found out about my friendship with Ahil I would be as good as a dead meat.
I somehow managed to convince myself that there's no need to think about him.

The next day, it took a turn that changed my life.