california // johnnie guilbert x y/n

25 happiness is a butterfly

AN: YOUS CAN HAVE A EXTRA PART BCS ITS 2:11am AND I CANT SLEEP

today johnnie and jake are throwing a party today and im really excited for it me and tara are going together

im wearing a black short flowery dress that reminds me of lana del rey and some black knee high boots and im accessorising with some gold hoop earrings

taras going to be here in 10 mins so im just finishing off my makeup

then i heard a horn outside and obviously it was the queen herself so i rushed out to greet her

"hello doll" i say with a smile

she was in a short black party dress

"hello babe" she says

i get in next to her and we drive to the party we listen to ayesh erodica on the way

when we get there we open the door and go find jake and johnnie we end up finding them in the kitchen

i walk up to johnnie and give him a hug and he gives me a kiss on the cheek

i end up just dancing with tara for most of the night and not drinking that much but me and johnnie haven't spoken much all night its almost like he's avoiding me

every time i try go up to him he just answers me with like one word answer it's really weird

obviously since the partys at johnnies i thought i would be staying over because hes my boyfriend so when the party is starting to end i decided to go find him

"are you going to get going" johnnie asks me

"im staying over why isnt y/n" tara asks looking mad

"oh uhm idk i just called her a taxi" johnnie says

i can feel my eyes start to sting but i dont want to cause anything so im just going to play it off

"'𝒹𝑜𝓃𝓉 𝒷𝑒 𝒶 𝒿𝑒𝓇𝓀' johnnie" tara says

"im not i mean you can stay if you want" johnnie says looking at me

"oh um no its okay" i say walking outside

"WAIT Y/N" tara says

"hm" i say turning around

"ill wait with you SINCE YOUR BOYFRIEND IS SUCH A DICK HEAD"

"oh okay" i say walking out with her

after a while the taxi shows up

"are you sure you will be okay going by yourself" tara asks

"yeah ill be fine"

tara pulls me into a hug and then i leave into the taxi

when i got in the driver smiles at me and asks where to so i tell him my address

happiness is a butterfly starts to play on the radio im relating to this song rn so i start crying quietly not to disturb the driver

im wishing im in johnnies sweatshirt right now so i can feel like lana del rey but you know you cant have everything

AN:
I JUST FINISHED WRITING THE LAST PART OF THIS STORY IN MY NOTES SO I JUST NEED TO POST THEM I THINK THERES ANOTHER 9 PARTS IDK
ANYWAYS HAPPINESS IS A BUTTERFLY IS ONE OF MY MANY FAV LANA SONGS SO ILL GIVE YOU MY FAVS IN ORDER AND WITH AN EXPLANATION

1: lust for life- BASIC BUTTT ITS BEEN MY FAV EVER SINCE I STARTED LISTENING TO LANA AND IT ALWAYS WILL BE AND IDEK WHY I JUST LOVE IT

2: happiness is a butterfly / black beauty- JOINT SECOND BECAUSE I LOVE BOTH OF THESE SONGS THE SAME THERE BOTH SOSOSOSO GOOD

3: venice bitch- THIS SONG IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH

4: shades of cool- LANA SOUNDS ABSOLUTELY BREATHTAKING IN THIS SONG!

5: bartender / black bathing suit- BOTH OF THESE SONGS ARE SO SO SO GOOD AHHHHH I CANT PICK BETWEEN THEM

6: california- THIS SONG IS ABSOLUTELY STUNNING LANA SINGS ITS BEAUTIFULLY AND THIS BOOK IS NAMED AFTER IT

SORRY ABOUT MY CUTE LITTLE LANA DEL REY RANT EVERYONE LOVE YOU ALL