Jealousy.

Part 1: "The Problem"

    What do you do when you have a crush on your best friend...? Do you tell them, or do you hold it in? Do you let it eat you up inside, not letting the feelings out...? What should you do when you fall in love with the person who bullied you back in Middle school, but then saved you from isolating yourself. Do you make your already complicated relationship even more awkward by confessing your feelings? They're a person you cherish most in your life, a person you would love to be around until you both leave the Earth. A person you've known for so long, and have been so far behind them that when you caught up, you don't know what to do. Knowing you cared for them, but not as much as you've come to realize... the scariest part is you don't know if they even care for you. What do you do?

    This is what Izuku has been living through for almost a whole month. Along with having to write that goodbye letter to his childhood best friend, this was one of the most gut-renching things Izuku thinks he's done. The idea that Katsuki's grip on Izuku is so strong that it hurts to think about him liking him so much. Being in Katsuki's for shadow for so long greyed out Izuku's feelings, now that Izuku is next to Katsuki, the person he's been admiring for so long... He doesn't know what to do. All these different repressed feelings are coming so suddenly, which is the most confusing part to Izuku. Even after all they've been through, with Katsuki's apology, these emotions that were slowly building are starting to boil over. With the focus of being a hero in the main priority of the both of them is the very reason he can't let them out. Being hero's has been both of their dreams since little boys, how the hell is he supposed to let these feelings out when they are both working so hard to reach that goal. Not to mention the tension between them since they got him back from working alone. He needs to tell someone, or get these feelings sorted out, if he doesn't these feelings will eat him from the inside out. His performance in school and training will deteriorate, his friends will get worried but he can't tell anyone... he can't tell Katsuki.

    This feeling in Izuku's stomach every time he sees someone so close to him makes him guilty. This feeling of Jealousy. This pit in his stomach knowing he can't do anything about it. Knowing how protective and jealous he gets over him, without Kacchan having any idea of any of it happening. This pit he looses sleep over, the pit that no matter how hard he wants it to leave it wont. Knowing kacchan has this power over him, he could rip his heart out of his chest without any knowledge of it happening. How powerful this feeling is. How much powerit is over Izuku, how controlling it is. He knows that these feelings won't ever just go way without pain, that he has to release them somehow to get over them. There isn't any other way to get them out then to use them in training, to push him to be the best hero saving people, that exactly what it's going to do.

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Class 1A just finished another game in the common area when Uraraka came over to Deku and sat down.

"Hey Deku! What you thinking about?"

"Oh. Hey Uraraka! I was just thinking about some stuff..." Izuku said.

"Oh... What kind of stuff?" Uraraka asked.

"Nothing important. What are you doing?" He replied.

"I got tired of either Kaminari winning or Mineta's whining." She said with a chuckle.

"Sounds like Mineta, what are you guys even playing?" He asked.
He asked peering over her shoulder. He looked around the room, making eye contact with Katsuki. His eyes widened and he quickly looked away.

"I don't know, some kind of card game? I wasn't really paying attention." She replied.

"Oh." He said getting up quickly.
Uraraka looked up at him, worried.