The Guy I Never Wanted

(part 9) Why Her

I was walking on the footpath to reach my school
playground for football practice. I was a bit nervous and scared . I would be lying if I say that it's because Samridhhi wants to meet me . I don't have any fear for that as it's not the first time she's done this . It's just a feeling in me which has now made me nervous and anxious to the point that I just want to return home .

Looks like I can't do that either as my school came in view . The same shitty good for nothing place where I was in a dilemma that I could even be loved . Though I have been in this place for more than a decade , I still will be the happiest guy to leave it . I checked my pocket to see if I brought the bracelet which I bought as a gift for her.

Just as I entered the boys locker room to change into my sports clothes , a dark figure came in my view .

"Ekshant is that you?" I asked while switching on the lights .
I turned my face to where that dark figure was .

I was speechless I tried to speak something but nothing came out of my mouth at that moment

There was Samriddhi in Ekshant's arms . I didn't need to ask them what they were doing , their red flourished face with saliva on lips ...

Something broke me in , i don't know what it was but it hurts bad really bad . They didn't even look guilty.

Soon the hurt was replaced by rage building in me . Samriddhi got off Ekshant's arms and came towards me . Now she try to justify it again after all.

"Hey listen I wanted to tell you about about this-

"JUST SHUT UP" I cut her off

"Is this what your 'forever' meant ?" I shouted and she flinched

"I am really sorry Apurv but I don't feel the same for you anymore you have changed a lot and I don't love this version of you" she tried to reason with me .

"So this is your excuse you ......... I don't want to degrade you , but you know you surely deserve that"

"What about Arushi huh , that dare you did don't try to fool me here got it " she said with frustration evident in her eyes .

"Am done Apurv , I like Ekshant now pls try to get over me and sorry I didn't want you to find about this in this way " She spoke trying to play the victim card .

She too manipulative one second she'd be frustrated and the other her voice would be calmer than a freaking bird as if was she did was just a mistake.

"So you we are done-e ? You are the one breaking up with me~..me after cheating and about Arushi's dare I told you it didn't mean anything and you were there you seemed to not care at that point , though whatever dare I did  can you still compareit with kissing Ekshant" i said in a loud voice . My voice slightly cracking just like my heart .

" Apurv I want to end this realtionship on good terms , I hope we could still be friends" She said finally in a defeated tone while looking at me her eyes . The eyes I craved for and once loved were breaking me to an extent that i couldn't have imagined .

"That's why you wanted to meet me after my practice???" I asked , trying not to shout again. I just can't, I will cry if I stay here I don't want to appear weak and fragile especially in front of my gf oh sorry .. my ex . She ain't my gf anymore .

"Yeah" she moved her eyes away from mine and stood beside Ekshant who then wrapped his hand around her waist . The same waist where my hands used to be .

She broke me . Not only she broke my heart but also my ability to love again .

Fuck I can't stand here anymore . I need to get away before I either cry or break someone's weak bones .

'Fuck the football practice' I need to inform them that I can't play surely not today .

Without changing out of my T shirt I just came out of the locker room and made way way towards the foot ball ground to inform everyone. My hands were slighty shaking , I tried to calm it down by holding both of my hands together . It didn't help , I just kept them in y pocket so no one could see them shaking.

I reached the ground and informed others that Ansh won't be able to play today as his sister is over at house . And I won't either as I have some important stuff . This was enough information for them. With that I turned around to leave but then I heard a someone saying.

"It is because of Samriddhi? I think Ekshant told him" Akshat spoke

They knew , they all fucking knew ... even I knew I saw the way she looked at him , she never looked at me that way but still I thought maybe this could work out . So stupid of me to think that . She cheated on me .

My steps were trembling as I reached the parking lot . Looks like my mind ain't working fine either as I forgot thati today didn't bring my car . "Fucking hell" I murmered if my car was here I could have easily went on a long drive or something to have some peace.

Getting out of the School gate , I wondered where to head . I have no destination no motive no will to do anything right now . 'Did I deserve that ?' I asked my mind . I got no reply maybe afterall I didn't even deserve an answer.

I just walked without an aim to reach anywhere . I was tired honestly done with everyone and everything. I sat on a bench across KD stationary .

The road seems pretty busy as it is Sunday. I observe the surrounding, a women with 2 children laughing while they walk together with a stuff toy . A memory of my brother flashed in front of my eyes . We were happy and joyfull just as these kids are. Sadly things change , people change or to be more precise Time changes .

Samriddhi changed and so did my own brother . Maybe I changed too but idk what I'm thinking right now. I might appear as a calm boy sitting on a bench but only if they knew what's going within me . Would they care? Why would they .

I have always had close friends but today it feels
Lonely

It's like I have people around me but I can't share anything to them . My image in front of them is just what I want myself to be portrayed as ..... as strong , bold person . Looks like I tolerate people to witness my emotional side .

Someone falls right in front of me . A girl I guess , she seems familiar. She stood up and draws dust out of her clothes. I could see something in her hand . The sun was setting and it was getting a little dark so looked closely too see a chocolate in her hands , wait that was shaped in a bear .

"Those are for kids" I murmered while a tiny bit of my gaze softens . It's not like I smiled or laughed .

That girl heard my voice and looked up at me .

Those almost black almond eyes , blue coloured mini ear rings and that annoyed expression . It's her ..why her... fuck in the entire world I have come across her wow the one that fucking led to my breakup  . It's Arushi ...

Heyy I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter I know I update late and it's because am lazy ,I won't lie . And yea do check the message I sent in the board it has an announcement regarding the update dates . Thank you byeee girliessss ❤