the honoured and the fallen | gojo satoru x reader

fallen

finally time came for the first years to pass onto their second and a new batch of first years entered the school. the new batch being megumi. for now.

you'd heard he had been training prior and he entered the school as a grade 2 which was an extraordinary feat.

“gumi hey!” you greeted as you visited his dorm.
“y/n-san. it's been a while” his lips twitched slightly into a faint smile.
“indeed. how is it here?”

“good. i will be going on my first solo mission tomorrow” his tone was more excited than usual.
“oh? already? i’ll make sure to watch intently”

“you'll be supervising?”
“damn right i am” you chuckle as megumi smiled more widely.

“right, gojo sensei has a mission tomorrow. i thought you follow him along?” he asked.
“i do but … he has a mission tomorrow?”
“that's what he said”

why didn't he tell me? you wondered as the previous mission crossed your mind. ah so that's why.

you wished megumi well and head back to your own dorm.
on the way, you came across satoru. of course.

“hey i heard you have a mission tomorrow?”
“yeah”

“and i suppose you don't want me coming this time?”
he stared at you blankly for a while and then nods silently.

why? you want to ask but you don't.
“works out, i can supervise megumi on his mission that way”
“you're not leaving the school”

“why not?”
“you won't be of help without your cursed technique, even if he needs it. which he doesnt.”
“are… you forcing me to use it?”
“no.”

you clench your jaw in anger. the way he was being so vague with whatever he wanted to say was frustrating.

“what do you want me to do then?”
“trust yourself. you're the only one who doesn't”
you scoff at his words.

“you're doubting yourself aren't you?” you glare at him silently. he was right. if you had your full powers back, would you stay here?

or would the power tempt you to go back to your old ways? would you be even allowed to stay here anymore? do you not want to leave?

“i trust you y/n. it's about time you trust yourself too.”

you were still unconvinced and even more conflicted. why does satoru trust you this much? even after everything?

back then it was understandable but now? with so much blood on your hands you didn't think, no you knew you should not be trusted or even spared. yet he did.

you were a model student and a very promising sorcerer, almost strong enough to become a special grade.

best friends with the strongest and even respected by your instructors. and yet.

all those prestige didn't matter to you. the lives of the people you cared for, did.

which is why you fell off from the glorious pedestal you were on and the potential you had. all for them. your friends, your comrades and now your students.

you realised you'd fall for them again if it meant they get to live just a little while longer. you'd fall for them over and over again.

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

wrote this on a whim and was so proud until i edited it lmao.

kinda short bc im cooking, expect more frequent updates hehe <3