Heart Beat | bang chan x F!reader

04. Shreds

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Die for you - joji

Bang chan was older than you, by the time you were in 2nd year university he was doing a full time job and was quite successful, despite dating someone so young well not that young, he loved you dearly those days, eventually got down on one knee and proposed to you.

Who was to say he didn't love you, everyone was almost proved wring that your first would be your last but well look how the tables have turned, there was only hatred that grew in you day after day, you couldn't bare it having him right next to you, even though you can't see him, you can hear him with Jane, his little angel...

The thought of a just a child he's known for just around 4 years was his everything, he wouldnt leave her for anything in the world, but he would leave you even if you were his first love, the woman he's known for years. The thought only tears you apart, you're shredded into pieces, it's the firts time you ever disposed a child so much, you loved children, you wished to even have children even if you weren't with him but it was the first time you dispised him so much that you even despise that little girl.

Were you really not worth anything? Were you really just a toy to him? Was it was play-pretend? The thoughts burned your scalp.

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Being a office worker wasn't easy for both you and bang chan, he was still too young to be handling his father's business, while you just wanted a break from the constant displeased boss and work he poured onto your head.

During some days when all eh neighbors were at work and you had a day off, you would roam around the building smoking, since there's no one there to complain or say anything about it and the entire building's empty, you like to spend your weekend inside roaming or driving.

One rush of a day at work for Chan, he was getting ready, everyone in the building was gone, busy at work, he was going to be late, when he received a message from his hired nanny that she quit her job and won't be showing up, he was stressed out, who would he give Jane to? Who would take care of Jane?

He suddenly noticed you walking down the stairs from the rooftop, he didn't want to hand Jane over to you, but he had no other choice and since you couldn't recognize him or atleast that's what he thought, he asked you to take care of his kid.

"uhh hey grace... Could you please do me a favor? Im in a rush right now, I assume it's your weekend? Could you please, please take care of Jane for me for just 3 hours? I promise she's a good kid"

You stood there just staring at him but you understood how hard work loads can be and since he was still a young dad you sighed and agreed.

Jane was at your house, your house was pretty clean, you never really made a mess or even had time to make a mess of a house due to work, you let her watch your TV until she got hungry.

She was too shy to even ask you but you could hear her tummy rumbling so you got up to make her a small snack, she really liked it alot.

"Jane..."

She stared up at you, smiling, you hated it but it melted you instantly, you couldn't be any mean to her after all she's just a kid.

"I haven't seem your mother... Is she well?"

You asked her assuming if her mother was in the hospital or abroad hoping to get a small idea about her mom.

"I don't know where my mom is..."

It shredded your heart, was she saying her mother is dead or worse left her?

"oh sorry dear... Didn't mean to put it like that, have you ever seen your mom?"

"yeah"

"how does she look like?"

You asked her hoping she woudl answer and not be weirded out.

"she's pretty, she's pale and tall... She has brown wavy hair and green eyes"

Your heartbeat dropped the second you heard her description, your smile was fading away.

Years before Jane was probably even born, a few months before the wedding night, you caught Chan in bed, balls deep inside a woman's cunt, she had plate skin, she was tall, she had brown wavy hair and alluring green eyes. That only meant he stayed with that woman after you left, and only a few years later Jane was born and that woman wasn't just a fling. You wonder if he was cheating on you even before the proposal....