𝗕𝗘𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗗 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗠𝗔𝗦𝗞 |Jeon Jungkook

10| 𝗕𝗲𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘆𝗮𝗹 𝗢𝗳 𝗙𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀

"You can fix yourself
When the outer world is betraying
But what should you do
when the betrayer was your
own feelings? "

4:44 am

Jungkook's room,

Jungkook's POV.

It was midnight and I was in my room sitting on the couch which I arranged beside window just like my room. But, unlike that one, this room was painted in a dark theme. I could feel soft winter breeze from the window.

I sat there after taking shower. Usually my mind felt fresh after taking shower, nevertheless today was different.

It had been two nights since I wasn't sleeping at night. All I did at night was torture on people, torture on her. On the other hand at day I slept like a dead.

I was sitting with a black guitar in my hand which was hers. I took the pick and start doing that thing which I haven't done in the past 3 years. 'Cause it was one of those things which I used to do for her. And what was funny? Even after all these year, it was only for her. So playing the guitar I started,

I wish you went behind my back
And tell me lies, staff like that
I wish you kissed someone I know
And did the unforgivable

Maybe hatin' you is the only way it doesn't hurt

I sang with all emotions I have. No lyrics would have described my feelings like this one. It said all the words had in my heart,

So I'm gonna hate you
I'm gonna hate you
Paint you like the villain that you never were
I'm gonna blame you for things that you don't do
Hating you is the only it doesn't hurt

Those words weren't just any words. They were my inner words. I was confused as hell in that moment. But I continued,

We weren't perfect
Bht we came close
Until I put all of our pain under the microscope
And I still can't face it
I still in love, for what it's worth

Maybe hatin' you is the only way it doesn't hurt

Yes! I knew I loved her. But she betrayed me. She broke my heart with her betrayal. I still love her. And she still again broke my heart with her tears. I knew maybe I was tortuting her more than she deserved. But, she also did torture me more than I could tolerate.

So, I'm gonna hate you
I'm gonna hate you
Paint you like a villain that you never were
I'm gonna blame you
For things that you don't do
Hatin' you is the only way it doesn't hurt

Suddenly, I felt an urge to hug someone. To keep my head on someone's shoulder and cry. Very hard. But there was nobody. There was only one person who used to help me with this but now, she was gone.

Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh

It's not the truth
It's not the cure
But hatin' you is the only way it doesn't hurt

I wanted to scream at that point. I wanted to die. I only knew I could never forgive her for what she did. For how broken she made my soul.

I left a sad chuckle. The songwriter indeed said the truth. Hating her had made it a lot easier. And I would definitely hate her. In that moment, she was my biggest enemy in the world. And The Mafia King Jeon Jungkook never lose even a single chance of hurting his enemy.