I choose you

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Sammie POV

I was sick to my fucking stomach. I was beyond HURT! But it was my fuck up. I cut ties with .... Damn I can't even recall her damn name. That's how important she was to me. I just knew Stef was my end game. I been off my game since our wedding day. Stef won't respond to my phone calls and then whenever I text her she reads it then get my hopes high when I see the bubbles only for her to not say a word. I miss her so much. What's fucks with my head more is the facts that she didn't take shit with her after we had our fight. She left all of that shit here it's bothering me so bad that I smell her scent all through my house the sheets even my fucking bathroom! Shit got me smoking weed heavy. I drink but not a lot I know what that shit can do to you. I don't even wanna be seen. I just stayed couped up in my crib. My family and friends hit me up. I ignore them. They aren't who I want to talk to. Every time our wedding day replays in my head I cringe. Thinking about how beautiful Stef looked. How happy she was. Shit I was crying too. I was more than ready to say I do. The confused look on her face hearing ole girl say that shit. Her tears turned into anger. I knew I fucked up badly when she hit me I tried to suck that shit but Stef been in the gym sparring and shit. Her hits felt like I was in the ring with Floyd mayweather. Next thing I know I'm getting jumped by pap and fat Joe they gave me a chance to stand so I can defend myself I started getting the best of fat Joe. Once he fell back I was going heads up with pap now this nigga I really didn't want to fight he's like a father to me but I had no choice. After he got the best of me pap grabbed me and lead me outside and got on my ass about how this is unacceptable. I seen Mrs. Carri rush out to her car. Then I seen Jaz. Just when Remy approached me to call me out on my shit I seen Stef. Crying running to her car. I so badly wanted to chase her. But I didn't I let her go while Remy mean mugged me saying slick shit. My mind drifted off to when I heard Stef saying something about Jaz and her momma. Now that shit caught me off guard this was the worst day ever. And the only one who caught all the bullets was Stef. I was listening to Ball Greezy since you been away that shit been hitting home

I wanna pull up to your momma house but me and your momma we done fell out yeah I see your car parked in the yard you at the crib but all the lights off yeah I wanna knock on the door but I already know cause me and you done been here yeah once before baby I'm sorry I apologize that I done broke your heart for the third time.

Staring at my phone wishing she would say something I'm willing to fight to get her back. I'll chase her for however long I have on earth. I can't accept being done with. I miss my best friend.

Stef POV

I'm dealing with a heartbreak I can't even think about Jaz and my momma the way I'm feeling is I don't gov a fuck I just need my best friend and my momma what they have going on is just that on them. I was listening to dreezy love someone fr jaqcuees that shit was hitting me. I blazed a blunt keeping the song on repeat. I felt all of that shit dreezy was saying in a way she was talking to me.

Heartbreak might be the worst pain I ever felt and I can't blame nobody but myself yeah I was tryna turn a jack to a king had to play what I was dealt I hate it even hit the point we gotta end cause the outcome fucked the friendship I can tell that your interests is different thinkin you can treat me like bitches you been with

Some of the shit I could relate to some I couldn't I was staring at the ceiling when I heard a knock at my door. I sat up when I seen it was Jaz and my momma. no words were spoken they just hugged me.the love I needed at the moment I felt so I embraced from them. Feeling my energy shift my spirits were lifted . I wasn't feeling down anymore instead I was feeling like myself as the tears released I felt like I was releasing my pain and the negative emotions that's crept into my mind. As I pulled back jaz spoke up

Jaz: bitch did you just get snot on my shirt

Carri: slaps Jaz arm don't do my baby she mugged

Stef: I laughed for the first time since what occurred it felt great Bitch you better be lucky I even let you ugly ass hug me I said causing a outburst of laughter

Carri: there's my baby beautiful laughter and smile

Stef: I really needed this I said as I wipes my tears it's been a trying time for me I don't know how long it will take for me to get back to myself

Carri: baby girl you will never get back to yourself instead you will be strengthen by your heartbreak you will become a new woman just wiser

Stef: I nodded my head I can see the change in myself heart not turning cold but it will be harder for anyone to get close to me I figured to shift the conversation from me to them soooooo how did this come about with both of all ? I watched as my momma blushed and nudged Jaz to speak on it

Jaz: rubbing the back of her neck umm it started spades night we were drunk and kissed we knew it was wrong so we fought it we didn't do anything after that day if anything we avoided each other for months. Then the night that Sam and I were performing and you Carri was with Trey . Was our first time seeing each other since our kiss. I purposely left out that I fingered her momma that night

Carri: she kept avoiding we tried to fight the connection thinking it was a fluke. Only for it to be more intense. I followed her in the restroom to talk. But it turned into something more

Jaz: blush it made us more curious about each other. That night led to us exploring what we felt. But it scared us away from each other.

Carri: Then I got with Curtis trying to prove to myself that Jaz wasn't who I wanted. But then I would pull away from Curtis bc I compared him to her.

Jaz: we actually stopped fucking around for a hot minute I cut off all communication with Carrie. She chose her side and what she wanted.

Carri: It hurt me so bad that she wouldn't talk to me. Then she had her listening party. I brung Curtis with me. But when we seen each other I felt the tug between us. I seen the hurt in her eyes. She avoided me again. Then I was jealous of her friend Lady. How she interacted with her. I waited for the chance to get her alone and talk to her

Jaz: I had stepped out to smoke. I had things on my mind. I was just vibin. Then Carri came out and we talked.

Stef: if y'all were talking outside. Why did Curtis tell us he didn't see you?.

Carri: oh um that's because we weren't parked out front and we were just smoking. So it's a good chance that he called my name but because I was high I didn't know if I was hearing things.

Stef: yeah when you got some good as weed lol

Jaz: and you know we only smoke the best.

Stef: so what happened after that? Because I'm sensing that wasn't all

Carri: I ghostwd Jaz that night then when she came here and you were telling her about your engagement. We went out separate ways for good

Jaz: it took for me to run into my moms and pop who were dining out with her and Curtis. I was popping in to grab food for Lady and I we were just vibin but I didn't tell Carri that. Because it wasn't her business she chose up and this time I was letting her stand on it. We actually didn't talk until your wedding. That was the first time she laid eyes on me.

Carri: and what you seen wasn't on Jaz. I kissed her. I was finally choosing. But I guess the timing was wrong. I just needed to get it out before she left your wedding and I didn't see her again. I for damn sure wasn't gonna let her leave with Lady.

Stef: I listened to both sides. I can't get made at them for finally answering when love calls. All I could do is finally give them my blessings.

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