A love hate relationship

11

Melissa

"Your mom almost caught on." I said as she lay on top of me. 

"Yeah she did."

"I feel she'll be okay with it." She looked at me. 

"You think so?"

"Yes. She was so accepting once she found that I was gay."

"That's because you're not her child. Her reaction would have been different if she thought I was gay."

"I doubt it. She probably already know."

"Nah she don't." She rested her head back on my shoulder. 

"What if she didn't agree to us being together?"

"What are you asking?"

"Would you leave me if your mother didn't approve?" I watched as she thought about that question. 

"I don't want to give the wrong answer. Because it would hurt me to have to leave you but it would hurt me to have my mother kick me out of her life because of how she felt about my sexuality." 

"Okay. Forget I asked." With that answer I had gotten my own answer from that. I knew that she would leave me because of what her mother thought about us being together. I sighed.

"What's wrong?" 

"I just realized how risky it is loving someone."

"What do you mean?" 

"For example. I gave you my heart, and you now have the power to break it and there's nothing I can do about it." I sighed again. 

"And vice versa."

"Yeah and vice versa mama's." That shit was scary as fuck. In the beginning I knew that I was playing a dangerous game when it came to messing with a woman that claimed to be straight but I didn't think about my heartbreak. If I had thought about risking my own heart in the process would I have proceeded with this? I don't know, but now that I was here I didn't want to let go. I sighed again. 

"Stop doing that. You sound heartbroken." I forced a smile but didn't respond. In a since my heart was hurting with just the thought of this woman leaving me. If I felt this bad now I knew I wouldn't pull through if it actually did happen. I now knew that she would have to at least tell her mother if we were going to proceed with his relationship, but what was I going to do, stop pursuing her because I suddenly grew scared? I couldn't help the sigh that came from me again and she sat up looking down at me. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." I forced another smile.

"I know that something is wrong. Just tell me."

"I don't want you to get upset." 

"I won't, just say it."

"That's hard to believe." I joked. 

"Seriously. Just tell me." Sighing I said.

"I need you to tell your mother about us." 

"Why?"

"I just need you to. Please." She suddenly looked so nervous. She pulled away and I reached for her pulling her to me. "She'll be okay with it. Just tell her." She snatched away and made her way to the bathroom. "Flora!" When she didn't respond I cursed under my breath. "Fuck. Here we go." Sliding out of bed I went after her. She was getting dressed. "Where are you going?"

"Home."

"Why?"

"I have to work in the morning and so do you."