kintsugi

SHATTERED HEART (ii)

 Porchay's pov :

 After all this commotion Kim and Leon have decided to stay and Porsche and Pete have decided to be  around . I went to my room and locked it . I suddenly saw a photo of me and both  of my kids This photo was taken during our picnic date . Seeing this photo brought all the happy memories I had with my bunnies . Recalling all this incidents brought tears in my eyes . I  really regret even coming here . If we didn't came to Thailand nobody would have been kidnapped and all of us  would have lived happily in Italy.

In this room the person who is crying is not a Italian Mafia leader Vincenzo but a  loving parent that is porchay . The Italian mafia is a just a mask which Chay wears to hide his insecurities and his fear from this world  .All of us think that the  some people are not afraid and  insecure  of anything  but that is not the truth  everyone is afraid and insecure of something but some people don't let others see through it . They wear their mask so perfectly that we think that mask was the real person personality. This is just what I did while talking with Thai mafia family although I was afraid for my children but  I acted like the bravest solider so that at lest I can comfort  Macau and my Italian and Chinese man that we  can set through it easily . But in reality I am scared of all the possible ways  that man will harm my children in . I really don't know what to do ? Am I really a bad leader ? Am I a really bad friend for blaming Macau for everything ?  .But  for all these questions I have no answer to I am sure of one thing that I am not going to give any other chance to so called brother or Lover to hurt me again . I might be weak now but I will wear my mask so well that nobody can see this weak porchay . 

I am really sure of  another thing that old man can't have done this kidnapping alone as Kinn might have know if 60 of his bodyguards were taken away I suppose another mafia is involved here and  that family is providing even ammunitions to this old man as Khun Kinn himself said that those weapons the attackers were carrying were not from their weaponry .

I called my head bodyguard  Kit to investigate all the mafia family that came late or couldn't attend the meet . He said he will look into this matter and asked me to take care of myself.

Kit had been has been my bodyguard for 4 years he is actually like my friend so he always takes care of me like a elder brother. I just hope you three are safe babies . " Pa will surely found you" .I though . I went to garden to get some fresh air but I met the person I hope  to not meet during this life .

" Angel are you tired ? you should rest don't worry na angel I would find our children at the earliest baby ." he said  . WOW  the audacity of this man to talk like we are lovers and nothing happened in the past . Like we are parenting the children together and he is a loving father like he never called me names .

Kim Pov :

I wanted so bad to hug my angel and tell him that its gonna be alright  but I was the one who is responsible for what I did in the past . Seeing the photo of my children I really wished I can go back to time and slap the shit out of myself . I missed everything the birth of my children , their first word , first walk and one of their firsts. But now I have decided to persuade chay and never let him and  my children go again . A part of  was also  angry at who even dare to be a daredevil by kidnapping my children  I will make there soul regret to have even born on earth. They dared challenged the cold prince of Thailand and they will surely face the consequences of their actions .

Suddenly I saw Chay coming towards the garden but his face looked very tense and tired   so I asked him " Angel are you tired ? you should rest don't worry na angel I would find our children at the earliest baby ."

His face clearly showed that he was not expecting me here . But I always knew this habit of him whenever he is tense he would take a walk in the garden .