48 hours with you

Encounter

I woke up and it was still dark. My eyes hadn't adjusted yet so I could feel myself panicking, I moved my hands around the bed covers in search of my cell phone. It was silent for a second and then I heard the door opening, My heart started racing, and I felt I was going to faint I looked around and there was nothing to grab, I sat there in shock.

"Cass? Are you okay?"

"James?" I couldn't help but start crying. "Is that you?"

"Yes it's me in the flesh," He said as he turned on the lights, the flash of the lights made me feel dizzy.

"Are you sure you're okay? I had a very worried taxi driver bring you here because I had called you and he had nowhere to take you. So I told him to bring you here."

I couldn't help but start crying my emotions were all over the place I still felt dizzy and nauseous. I wondered how long had I been here, I was so confused. James just stood there and patted my back "It's going to be okay." He said. "I don't know if I'll be okay James, I'm so broken, I just don't know if I can do it… It's been days, yet I still feel so empty "
"Cass, it's going to take time. Pain takes time but heart pain takes longer."
"I feel broken James. like my soul has been ripped out of my body like I am no longer me anymore.

"It's okay to feel that way, imagine you just found out that the guy you loved had been cheating on you for one year and you expect to still be whole. Come on Cass, it's normal to feel broken. To feel vulnerable. It's okay to cry, and if you need a shoulder to cry on I'm here."
The tears flowed and I cried. I cried because I hated that I felt like this, powerless and helpless. I wanted this to be over. All I wanted was someone to love me, yet that wasn't love and I never saw it until it was too late. I leaned on James and cried, I cried until my eyes closed from exhaustion.