(Clementine's Pov)
I woke up to the feeling of a hand on my head and the sound of soft breathing. I moved a bit in the bed and moved more into the warmth and I feel the person shift in their sleep. I look to see Violet as she still had her eyes closed and she moved her face a bit into my hair as best as she could. Her hand was still on the back of my head and her other hand was on my side now. I closed my eyes a bit as I just listened to her breathing and I felt relaxed. The sad thing about this though was that I was leaving tonight. I felt bad that I was leaving again but it wasn't as bad as just sneaking away like last time, I also promised I was going to be back in a few months, maybe I could come back early and surprise them.
I moved my head up a bit as I feel Violet pull me just a little closer to her. I never took her as a cuddler, it was cute if I was going to be honest. I think about what I had told her on the Bell Tower. I still do like her but even she said she didn't want to try a relationship again, but she also said that if I wanted too we could. I just don't get it; did people have these issues before? How are people supposed to deal with this? I mean this is the first relationship or well past relationship and only relationship I had been in. I wish I could ask someone about this stuff.
"Hmm." I hear Violet mumble in her sleep and I move my arm so I had it on her side as well and she moved her head a bit. she was still sleeping which was good, she needed to rest up. I was still lost in thought though. Why was she so nice to me after what I did? Why was she ok with it? Was it because she felt the same way with Minerva? I know I wasn't a replacement for the broken girl, she never said I was or wasn't a replacement. Did it have to do with the fact that Minerva was thought to have been dead? but she still had feelings for her? Why was I even thinking about all of this?
We aren't getting back together, we can't get back together, relationships are stupid, people act stupid. I just have to keep reminding myself of this, it's always ended up bad, and I can prove it. Louis was mad because Violet and I were together, I mean we didn't officially become girlfriends, just a few kisses here and there in secret. But like I said he never really got to know me like she did. She took her time with me, she let me kiss her, she would ask if it was ok, she would ask if I was ok, I've never seen that with the others I've seen.
I remember when I was with Javiers little group for a bit, and his nephew Gabe. He never asked to be with me but he would listen to me, and why? Because I was someone that wasn't family? Because I knew what I was doing? But Javier also kind of knew what he was doing too, but Gabe didn't listen to his uncle, but he would listen to me. He did kind of think full of himself and he was an idiot, I mean the whole situation when it came to talking about Conrads's death proved that. He didn't tell the full truth, had I been with him would he have kept things from me?
Louis never took the time to get to know me, granted I didn't hang around him as much as Violet. I don't know why I stayed near her more, maybe it's because she never tried to pull me, to make me hang out with her, she would ask if anything was ok, or if I wanted to talk. Louis would just talk, even if you didn't want to hear it he would just talk. I get it, it's how he is so I can't really fault him for that, and he is a bit funny, from what Violet has told me.
"I can hear you thinking." I hear and look to see Violet as she still had her eyes closed and she moved her head a bit so she wasn't talking in my hair.
"Sorry." I whisper.
"Don't be... what has you up still?" She whispers back and she rubs my back gently. Why was she so gentle with me? I wasn't frail, I wasn't like those glass dolls that would break from a slight breeze. But I would be lying if I said I didn't like this.
"Just not that tired." I tell her and she chuckled lightly.
"I know that's bullshit, you sleep in a lot." She mutters and I couldn't help but laugh. She keeps rubbing my back gently and I move my hand so I was gripping her shirt a bit as I tried to think. How can I explain all this to her? How would she react? What would she even think of me?
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The Broken But Strong
FanfictionWhen Clementine and AJ are moving around never stopping they crash into a couple of school kids lives.