The Broken But Strong

Can You Teach Me?

(Clementine's Pov)

I woke up slowly and felt Violet running her hand through my hair gently. I slowly move closer to her and felt her move a bit so she could place her hand on my side and her hand gently placed on my back. I didn't want to move from this spot. Again I felt safe when I was with Violet but I knew I had to get up so that I could leave. But did I really want to leave?

"Morning." I hear and then look up a bit to Violet but she didn't move her head as she kept running her fingers through my hair.

"How early?" I asked.

"Hmm, maybe two, three give or take." She says quietly and I nod and place my head back to her and I closed my eyes again.

"Five more minutes." I tell her and I feel her nod gently.

"Ok." She says and I just stay with her. If I did stay would we do this every night? Would we just have these silent peaceful moments? I would like that. It was nice, it was relaxing, and if I have to be honest it felt nice when she rubbed the back of my head or ran her fingers through my hair. I guess the five minutes were up because I feel Violet move her hands away from me and I look to her as she moved up in the bed and move the blanket.

"A week." I say and she looks to me and I look to her.

"What?" She asked.

"I'll be back in a week... not a month, not two, a week... and... I'll stay." I tell her.

"Are you sure?" She asked and I nod as I sit up a bit and we were face to face.

"Yeah... I have to get use to staying somewhere, and... you did say this was my home too... and I like this." I say and gesture around us.

"You... make me feel safe and I haven't felt this way in years, and... I don't now." I say as I place my hand to my head as I tried to think.

"Hey, what did I tell you?" She asked as she looked to me and I look back to her.

"To not force myself." I tell her and she nods.

"Right, don't try to force yourself, just gradually ease into staying longer." She says and I look to her.

"Fucking hell." I mutter and I feel her move in the bed so she was behind me her legs on each side of me and she hugged me. I feel her place the side of her head on my shoulder and I grab her one hand gently.

"Do you think you could stay another day?" She asked.

"I don't know." I tell her honestly.

"... How about I go with you till we reach the city limits... just a day out, and if you feel like you want to come back and not leave then we can head back here... I told you we all would understand." She says and I nod at this.

"Alright... do you want to get more sleep?" She asked and I nod. We shift a bit in the bed so I was laying on top of her. My head was under her chin and she had one hand on my back and her arm on the back of her head as we laid in the bed.

"Why am I like this?" I asked quietly.

"Like what?" She asked as she rubbed my back.

"Confused... confusing, just... I say I'm going to leave but I don't want to, but yet I do." I tell her and she shrugged a bit.

"You just don't know what to do, again it's fine, and this is what you are use to doing." She tells me.

"But it makes me look stupid." I mutter.

"No, it doesn't, it's new for you, trust me anything new that happens it makes people look stupid but in reality, it makes sense in a weird way." She tells me. I keep quiet for a while but we still just laid in the bed and I closed my eyes again. I tried to get any type of sleep and when I did, I would just wake up again. I tried to go back to sleep but all these thoughts began to bother me. I feel Violet shift a bit but I didn't open my eyes as she moved out from under me. I hear her leave the room before I opened my eyes a bit and I sit up in the bed. I moved the blanket to see that the stars were still out and I lay back in the bed and just looked to the top bunk.