until it's gone I can never find peace {𝕹𝖞𝖝🌙}

chapter 6: FALLING (insane)

"you're my drug Zuri" my breathing hitched the moment I heard it. My heart beat was rising as blood rushed through my cheeks turning them red but it was not visible due to the dimmed lights. His grab becomes tighter than it was as his fingers were slowly getting closer to my breast.

His chin rested on my shoulder while my hands were on the desk looking down. "Wh-what are you doing Kevin" I tried to force the words out. I was blank but a lot of thoughts were flashing inside me. Those thoughts were buried deep inside me I never let them out.

He kissed my neck and I felt something down there. His hot breath was giving me an electric shock every time he released it. The sensations were delicious. He kissed my earlobe gently as the hot breath was travelling right down my spine. I was weak, but I didn't mind it at all. I want more.

What is this feeling? Why does it makes me feel good? Does this happens to only me or him as well? Why am I loving it. A lot of questions were flowing in my mind. He planted a soft kiss on my jaw as he creased my waist. This feeling is surrealm is he the devil or god?

After giving me all those delicious feelings, he took his hands off immediately and looked confused. He was facing downwards. Embarassed?..why?

"I- did you..somehow feel like uh- like..fuck it!" He sat on his bed stomping his feet in irritation. He was still facing down, words struggling to get out but he was unsure what would I feel. I chugged up the remaining drink and kept it on the table. Gently walking towards him i stood infront of him. His face met mine.

He has something in his eyes that attracts me, that charm that i see is unmatchable. I still stood still not knowing what to do. His phone rings

"Okay mom I'm coming" he cuts the call. "We shall go now..." I nodded and went down with him. While coming down from the stairs his friends were waiting for him. Once they saw us together, they started to gossip hiding their face.

I try to ignore them and go down. I heard many people chatting among themselves about us it doesn't bother me as I've always been the centre of attention. After we reached down and went to the ground where we saw Kevin's parents tryinh to announce something.

They held the mic and started giving his speech. I heard that he saved one patient who was almost going to die. We all clapped after he was done with his speech. We all started to eat. I took my plate and was moving on forward while looking around. I suddenly bumped into someone to my surprise

It was none other than Kevin. The moment in the room flashed in me. I wanted it right now. What was that feeling?? I need to feel it now. Again. Without stopping. Continuously.

"I'm sorry" he said after picking up the broken plate as he handed it to me. "it's alright, I'm sorry too" I said with my voice being low, barely audible. Not sure if he heard it or not but he did smile.

It was around 12:30am now and I was going to call my driver to pick me up. The moment I was going to do that Kevin called my name

"Hey Zuri come I'll drop you"

"No thanks, it's alright I can go by myself"

"I know of course, but I wanna drop you at your house so please?"

Is he a freak??

After thinking a lot i agreed as he took out his car and made me sit in it. I sat on the passenger's seat as he was on the driver's. I was ready but then his hands went past me, the moment I turned around towards him I saw his face a few inches away from me.

The time was frozen again. My heart beat rose once more. Is this the feeling I was craving for? I deny, i wasn't. I don't want it...or do I need it?
He looked the door and streched out that seatbelt to attach it to my seat.

He backed off and sat on his seat as he drove off. We were silent all the way to my home. I was looking at him and looking away i noticed he did the same. Finally i reached.

"Goodnight" said Kevin waving his hands to which I smiled and went in. Taking off my dress and freshing up. I laid down in my bed as I recalled all the things that happened. I should not distract myself. It's just early adulthood... nothing else.

I tired so hard and some how i slept still thinking about those moments in my dreams....

He's in my mind... permanently