until it's gone I can never find peace {𝕹𝖞𝖝🌙}

chapters 17: ACCIDENT (insane)

This is the day I was waiting for. Finally the day came. I stood up and went out from the room to the rooftop. A great view but worst day, at this point I want to kill everyone who's around me. I might kill him as well. Again the thought of him makes me bite my tongue to remind me not to think of him.

Just as I look forward I felt strong arms wrapping up my waist pulling me closer as it hugs me tightly. I feel weak. Not sickness but weak. I feel his chin on my shoulders as he tilted his head towards my neck and planted a soft kiss on it. I love this feeling and i want more. I try myself to get a hold of me, but it's just his aura that tells me not to.

It certainly feels like he's controlling me. I open my eyes and got to see that dad is here. He came out from the car furiously. I tried to get out from his grip by pushing him but it was hard.

"K-kevin! Leave!"

"Why should I? You love it"

"I do but right now dad's here and I have to go."

He finally let me go as we both ran downstairs. I saw dad slapping one of the maid right on her face and scolded others. I hate dad for this. This fucking evaporates my blood. I ran down and tell Kevin not to come. Mom saw me and pointed myself to dad. Dad chuckled and told all the other maids to get lost.

"Oh! My sweet princess is here, finally" said my dad. I can see and feel the sarcasm but that doesn't bother me.

"As I said-" my words were cut off by a laugh by dad.

"Who allowed you to say? I should have killed you back then. Since the day you were born everything in our family went wrong."

"Family? You never even loved mom and you call it a family. Great."

"Your mom and I love each other."

"Oh really? You'll get to know that soon but first I will not marry a guy who is older than my dad"

"So? You're going to be a rebel? To your own parents? Don't forget that it's because of us that you're born"

"I wish I never was!" I shout at dad and continue, "I never asked to be born. You would've killed in the womb itself why did you even bring me here? In this family who care only about themselves! You see the marks in my body? Those are made by you. Imagine me saying to someone that those beautiful marks all over my body are made by my own parents. How friendly and fun it sounds!" Tears fill in my eyes but I try not to flow them.

Dad ignored my words and went to get the golf club as he walked hurriedly towards me. I saw mom right there standing as she was before as if she's enjoying the drama and why not. I can see the burning Passion in her eyes as if they're waiting for me to see die. But that won't happen today.

As dad came closer he swung the club but it didn't hit me. I closed my eyes. I did not want to move, I did not want to run anymore. I want to be free. But those thoughts stop when the golf club does. I opened my eyes and saw Kevin holding it the moment dad swung it. We were all in shock and I was too. It was the first time someone actually saved me from getting hurt.

"Leave her alone" his voice sounded demanding, deep and full of hatred.

"Who the hell are you? Get the fuck out from here it's a personal matter"
Dad said trying to get out of his grip but his old age syndrome didn't help him in any way.

"She's mine. No one including you can touch her except me."

Dad chuckled and left the golf club saying, " she's my daughter and I get to do anything I want to with her. If I want I can fucking fuck her all day"

I hate hate hate dad. Suddenly a puzzle was fixed in my mind. Dad must've raped mom and that's how I was born. No wonder why he wants me to marry this early.  I couldn't stand him just doing things and I keep watching so I pull his hair as I twisted his arm in a way that his golf club falls down.

He screams. Love it when nasty men like him screams. I suddenly get a thrill running down in my body. Adrenaline rushing, my hands trembling, my mind is giving me ideas on how to get rid of him, my eyes narrow as a smile forms. This feelings can be described in one word only...thrilled. It has been many days since this feeling kicked in.

I saw mom moving from her place and picking up the golf club and runs towards Kevin but I don't care about that, he knows how to handle it. Further, I squeeze his neck with my arms as he tries to get it out from him. As his heart beats and as he breaths, he gets closer to his death.

But suddenly I feel a hard hit on my back due to which I fell down. I saw it was mom with the golf club she was very proud with that hit. My eyes flew towards Kevin seeing him on the floor. How did that even happen? Did she aim for his dick?? But he looks passed out. I get up and run towards her to push her off.

Dad gets an opportunity as he slapped me on my face. Everything went silent as my past memories flashed and I came back to my senses just to see some maids dragging Kevin and dad is ready to hit me with the club again. This time, I won't let it slide. The moment he was about to hit me, I kicked him and took the golf club away. Threw it far away so that no one could get it.

Mom was running to get it but I stretched my leg as she fell down hitting her head to the table near the couch. She passed out. It's only me and dad now and I'll get rid of him today. Dad defends himself by trying to find something but he barely can because he's in pain now. I sat on the couch as my legs were on his throat, tightly.

"Get off-m-me"

"You'll die today, my precious father" I smile at him. He wasn't able to say anything as he passed away. I got up and checked if he was breathing. I couldn't feel anything so I walked away. But something was concerning. I didn't step on his neck that tightly...was it? I guess so.

The moment I shrugged it off, a loud roar sounded behind me just to see dad holding the flower vase ready to throw at me. It felt like time slowed down...my whole life flashed in front of me. Everything from the past including Kevin, I saw everything in a few seconds until I got back to my senses. I fell down on my knees. The next thing I heard was the vase breaking but not by hitting me.

I looked up immediately and stood. Seeing him trying to run towards me, I, with my full force pushing him away with the loudest scream i could ever make. The only thing I saw was fresh red blood flowing rapidly from his head as the glass table was broken into pieces. His eyes wide open just as his breath stops, his body relaxed as his arm fell on the ground signalling that he's not more.

Did I really just kill him.....