Kill for you - Yoonmin

Yoongi

It's safe to say Yoongi never expected his boyfriend to be ace. Although he noticed before how tense he gets with physical contact sometimes, he assumed it was a matter of trust and not much more. The first time they shared his bike Jimin didn't even hug him for safety now that he thinks about it. But as time went by they hugged, kissed and Yoongi always thought there would be a time for them to do more than that. He even considered Jimin to be the type of person who enjoys teasing the other. And yet here he is, with those pretty and sad puppy eyes, with no makeup and showing a defensive and slightly scared side of him.

- Jimin...wanna explain it a little more? To be honest it's the first time I meet someone like you

- There's not much to explain. I just don't wanna do it.

- Do you not feel attracted to others?

Jimin answers in a soft voice with blushed cheeks and while denying with his head.

- It's not that. I do find you very cute. I could even say you're beautiful, Yoongi. I love the way you look. I love the way you hug me and keep me close. But I really don't wanna have sex.

- Is it something hormonal? Or is it more...personal?

- Personal. I definitely can get horny. I've touched myself many times. But I try for it to go by fast so I can move on to something else.

Yoongi tries his best not to get a mental image of that. It's not easy since he's aware of how his own head reacts to the younger.

- Look Yoongi, I just don't want anyone to be on top of me. Or to be touched that way. Or to touch anyone myself.

Yoongi stays silent processing the information. Being a part of the gay community, he heard about things like these before. There's so many identities he never stopped to think carefully in each of them. Jimin avoids his eyes and stares at the door probably thinking on whether he should leave. And the silence is making him so uncomfortable he breaks it again.

- I'm sorry. I can't change that about me and I can't help thinking I must be broken. I understand how important sex is for others, I wouldn't judge you if it was essential for you so...

He doesn't cry because he doesn't allow himself to do so. Even if his voice sounds extremely insecure, he shows Yoongi a side of him he never thought he would. Not wanting to scare him, Yoongi answers without getting much closer.

- I just wanna know one thing

- Which one?

- It's just about sex, right? I mean...I could hug you to sleep and touch you with the only intention of feeling you against me? Can I kiss your body without it being sexual?

Jimin stares at him and gets a tiny bit closer, knowing he won't need to leave the bed after all.

- Y-You can.

- Then I don't see a problem. And I don't think you should use the word broken to describe yourself. I can't deny I do have things I wanna do with you b-

- But can you...Can you be with me knowing it won't happen ever in my whole life?

- Are you low-key asking me to spend my entire life with you, sweetie?

Obviously, he can't avoid blushing hearing the idea. And he tries not to stutter an answer

- That's not... that's not what I meant, I think

- I know. I just wanted to make you nervous. Because you look cute when you're shy. And yes, I can be with you my whole life without sex. There's no point in doing something that you don't want. It wouldn't have sense.