I have an extreme fear of heights and deep waters. It happened in my childhood after someone pushed me off a cliff and I nearly drowned on the ocean below. Miraculously‚ I survived. I avoided everything that may trigger those traumatic memories after that and also‚ I met you.You gradually help me overcome my fear of heights for whenever I am with you I felt like I’m always on top of the world. I feel so high around your presence as if there’s no other emotion existing besides euphoria and I didn’t realized how much I depended on you for that until later.
When you decided to be gone without a trace‚ I lost me. I lost my way. I craved the happiness you gave me so bad until I sank on the depth of the ocean of expectations I created. I dug a grave of my own and now‚ I’m desperately fighting to breathe and remain sane.
Funny how I thought you made all my fear go away when you actually just add up to my pile of it. Nice‚ new fear unlocked — ‘philophobia’.
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To Where The Lost Soul Reside
RandomA compilation of prose‚ poems‚ and one-shot stories.