cringing and dying || poems, quotes, and unsent letters by me <3

no second chances.

it is impossible to fill voids left behind
voids left by people you loved
i try to find you in everyone i meet
yet they always fall short
i see a chance in some, then I hear
the clutter of makeup and im back on my knees
i see a chance in some, then i see
them happy with other, and i dont want to intrude
you would tell me to go away, get off you.
you've found someone better
less broken
its fine, i reply, i will go on and be stronger
i don't tell you that you were the reason
i had found my strength in the first place
i kneel at my bedside and pray,
pray for a better life, for a better me
a me who isn't afraid of loving others
a me who isn't afraid of others loving me
a me who doesn't fear being replaced,
or replacing others
love is too fickle
love is too weak
love tore up my heart and my insides
until there was nothing left but greed
and greed murdered my best friend