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I stepped outside, the cold air hitting me straight in my face. I shivered.
I felt in the inner pocket of my jacket which I had quickly gotten from the coat rack without anyone seeing me, for my emergency earphones which I had so called lend and never returned to Nico.
My heart thumped in my chest as I tried to close the front door as silently as possible.
As soon as the door was closed and I was outside, I put in my earphones, going to spotify and opening my soft songs playlist, which mostly consisted of Phoebe Bridgers songs. I put on 'Home' by Catie Turner, I scrolled down. In a few seconds my queue consisted of a list of songs.
Not a lot, just forever, Adrianna Lenker House song, Searows The gold, Phoebe Bridgers Anything, Adrianna Lenker Savour complex, Phoebe Bridgers Waiting room, Phoebe Bridgers.
I began walking, the tears began rolling again.
I felt a sense of comfort. The breeze in my hair, the song on a way to loud volume, and most of all the thought of Dani.
I kept walking.
The song ended.
Next song.
Someone bumped into me, a little girl. "Sorry." I apologised. "No problem." The mother said. "Are you okay?" The little girl asked. "Yeah." I forced a smile. "Sorry again, have a good day." I apologised again. "You too." The mom kindly smiled at me.
'I could be a good mother. And I wanna be your wife.'
Ow.
I could be a good mother, I'd be better then my own. I'd support them, be there for them, like my own mother wasn't there for me.
I imagined myself, ten years from now. A little baby in my arms, a beautiful baby. They looked like me, but with the most enchanting dark blue eyes.
I snapped out of my daydream, I thought of her again. And I shouldn't, not like that.
After three songs, I knew I was only about three minutes from Dani's house. This I knew because it had somehow lingered in my memory.
I took out my phone, and opened my messaging app. Waiting room started playing. I paused for a second. Then searched for Dani's name in my contacts.
"Almost there." I texted her. A typing bubble almost immediately popping up on Dani's side. "Blair missed you." She sent me, the wink emoji at the end of her sentence making me laugh.
