Silversong's Sorrow

Chapter One

Warning: topics of m!scarr!ag3.

I glanced around the SapphireClan camp. A quarter-moon ago, I had been made an apprentice along with my sister, Goldpaw, and my older brother became a warrior. Now, things are all different. It's just training, patrols, waking up early... Life was horrid.

Goldpaw was always bright and happy. She always seemed the exact opposite of me – I was silver, she was gold. I was upset, she was upbeat. I was the least favorite, she was the favorite.

My mother, Fadedlight, had always favored her. This made me resent Goldpaw. But, I know she is destined for great... I have always felt it. I shared this with Flowerpetal and she had agreed with me. Whether StarClan decides to confirm my suspicions or not, I'll be waiting.

A few groups of cats were around the camp – Twistedpaw, Ashpaw, Goldpaw, Blizzardpaw, Vanillapaw, Crowpaw, and Vixenpaw were all in a circle, chatting away. They would giggle every so often. Seeing them, my heart ached for their connection – I hadn't felt that connection for a while. Someone who I can lean on and laugh with... they all seem to share that feeling. I guess I was the "odd one out," even though I thought I had a lot in common with some of the apprentices. I even thought me and Twistedpaw would become friends. I had talked to him a lot.

Crowpaw glanced behind and spotted me. He swiftly rose and began to pad towards me. My cheeks grew hot – did he take pity on me?

"Hi, Silverpaw," he purred charmingly, "do you want to come talk with us?"

I glanced up at him, still blushing. "No, thank you, Crowpaw."

He widened his eyes in surprise. I couldn't blame him. He gave me a soft bow of his head before returning to the others.

I began my scan of the camp again. Another group was full of warriors. Lilacshine, Echosong, Kestrelgaze, Cloverwish, and Shatteredsky. Shatteredsky was beaming with joy as he talked to the cats – I presume it was about his mate, Snowfeather, and her new litter of kits.

Lilacshine. I always thought she was an interesting cat. She grew up in a Clan far out from our Clans. There, she met a young tom, Risingstorm. The two fell in love, and Lilacshine was expecting; but, Risingstorm left that Clan, and a few days later, Lilacshine miscarried. I could see the pain in her eyes, listening to her friend ramble about his kits.

Then, another group was with Scatteredstars, – I wonder why Sapphirestar let her keep that name? – Crystalfrost, Astrowing, and Fadedlight. Foxdung.

I could see they were talking about me and Goldpaw with their occasional glances towards us. I groaned.

I hated being talked about, or being glared at. It just made my skin crawl.

Goldpaw approached me, sitting down beside me. Then the group approached us.

Goldpaw, the happy, little she-cat, greeted everyone as they began to talk.

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