Was It worth it to be happy for a little while?

chapter 2

logans pov

my sobs start to die down and its now 1am, never did I think this would come. being alone in Australia my first boyfriends home town. my breath speed up despite my sobs slowing down. my heart feels as if its about to explode, I think i'm dying, oh my god i'm dying. my breath picks up more as I get more stressed. I stand up to go get a drink but everything goes blurry.

alone

oscars pov

as Logan leaves I can see somethings bothering him, I doubt its max because they were chatting earlier I mean they arrived together so there's not bad blood there. his race weekend has gone well so far. I grab my phone out of my pocket and go into my private instagram, my face drops when I see the first post.

williams

"THIS IS THE HARDEST MOMENT I CAN REMEMBER IN MY CAREER AND ITS ABSOLUTELY NOT EASY. I AM HOWEVER COMPLETELY HERE FOR THE TEAM AND WILL CONTINUE TO CONTRIBUTE IN ANY WAY I CAN THIS WEEKEND TO MAXIMISE WHAT WE CAN DO"

LOGAN SARGEANT

my face pales the further through the post I read. "Lando, max we have a problem" both of there eyes flick over to me "Logans car has been given to Alex this weekend, he isn't driving we should not have brought this up today. no one he was so zoned out. we should go check up on-" lando has cut me off "no he's a big boy he can deal with a few hours without us its fine" 'LANDO! WHAT DO YOU HAVE AGAINST LOGAN I DON'T GET IT?" I've not once raised my voice in the few months we have been dating so its not surprising that he shocked lando. "fine go see him but I want a nap and cuddles so you can either go mope or have a peaceful nap" lando always knows what to say to get me to stay. I slowly sit back down nuzzling my head into lands neck. Logan has always been good with his emotions so its fine. he will be fine for a night by himself. I feel myself dozing off to sleep.

-the next morning-

Logans POV

I drag myself out of bed, I good bruise forming on my cheek. I grab my phone but there are no new notifications not even a good morning. this really isn't normal. I've noticed them drifting though.

alone

January 2024

I start putting the chicken into the wraps just how lando and Oscar like there's. its not my taste but its okay. the two of them walk downstairs hand in hand both in fancy suits and confusing fills my bones.

"I made dinner." they both glance over at me as if my presence wasn't noticed before. "oh my gosh Logan im so sorry we are going out for dinner but we will see you tonight"

back to present

that was my last night in Monaco with the two of them before I had to go back to the uk for testing. Maybe with max they will start acknowledging me more but then again they spoke to max without me.

unappreciated