Was It worth it to be happy for a little while?

CHAPTER 4

-summer 2024-

logans POV

I haven't seen lando, Oscar or max now since April and now I've completed my last Grand Prix I'll ever get to do.

worthless

my feet are dragging themselves to media, a forced smile making its way onto my face and I start joking around with Alex like I always do but he does reciprocate the joking. maybe lando is right maybe I am just an insufferable American.

alone

"so Logan how are you feeling about leaving formula one after only a season and a half" an interviewer says

"it is what it is I can't sit and dwell you know? there's other opportunities maybe ill go to indie car or something but for now my plan is to just spend time with family." my PR manager smiles at my response and a look of shock comes on max's face, he obviously expected me to think its the end of the world.

"Logan does you leaving have anything to do with your lack of friends here, its quite common knowledge that you were not close with anyone."

"no i just decided that this isn't for me and that I need to find other opportunities. maybe ill be back in my thirties but as of now I want to work on finding other passions and seeing family because with karting and spending time in Europe I didn't get to see them much"

most of the questions directed at me are somewhat racing related.

as the day drags on I get more and more bored, the debriefs are pointless, me sitting in all these meetings is a waste of my time. I stand up and walk out despite the angry should of James but my flight is more important. I place my bags in the overhead storage and lean back, fortunately no one recognised me because I left before them all.

the flight isn't too bad other than the occasional crying baby but that's what I get for going in standard. the flight lasts a couple of hours but I catch up on sleep as that's going on.

I moved to Monaco back a in may between races, I thought living near my 3 boyfriends would help, it didn't. if anything they became more distant. we all like in the same apartment block which can be awkward at times because we just walk straight past each other. never did I think me and Oscar would get to this point. back when we were 13 I would have said by 22 we would be married and thinking about adopting a kid but here we are, he's out with his boyfriends and i'm alone in a taxi lost in my own thoughts.

a/n another short one because the next one is sad so I apologise.