27 days before the suicide
I wake up to the dredfull sound of my alarm clock. I sit up and relization hits me. Spring break. I lied back down and staired at the celing for a good half hour.
I think of all the times I've disipointed people, the mistakes I've made. I'm so worthless.
I write a suicide note. I write them every time I go out. Its like a security blanket. So if I suddenly had enough while I'm out, I could already have a note.
"I'm fine" was the biggest lie I've ever told. Because I'm not. To anyone who cares, I'm sorry.
I sit it in the drawr of my nightstand and get dressed. I put on black leggings and a white shirt that said Bish. I put on black flatts. I don't make an effort with my hair and just put it in a pony tail.
With that I walk out of the house and into the car.
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The Brew. My favorite cafe. Mostly because of the lifesaver, Cassey. Shes tall, blonde, everything I'm not, and suicidal. Like me. Shes rich, smart, popular, yet still suicidal.
-Flashback-
"Can I take your order?" A girl says in a kind tone. I order a small decafe coffe. She nods and walks away.
I staired at the family outside the window. They were smiling, laughing, they were happy. 'Don't assume, Ayla.' I said to myself. For all I know they could be depressive or suicidal.
"One decafe coffe. Here you go hun." the stunning waitress says and sets the coffe on the table. She set it too close to the edge and it fell onto the floor, Breaking the cup. "Oh I'm so sorry!" She says as she rushes off to grab a washcloth.
I grab napkins and start to clean it up. "Battle scars." She mutters under her breath. "What?" I say confused.
"Nothing... uh... your cuts are... uh... showing." She says in a wisper. I swear my heart stopped at that moment.
"Lets talk about it?" She says. I agree and follow her outside to pour out everything I've kept bottled up inside.
-End of flashback-
"The regular?" Cass asked. I nod and she goes to get my decafe coffe.
A/N
Sorry it was short again! I need to work on long chapters... but whatver. Hope you like it!
Stay strong. -Ayla
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"I'm Fine"
RandomIn 30 days, Ayla Wescott kills herself. ----- Surviving her suicide attempt was not her intention. Neither was ending up in a mental hospital. And the depression got worse. The thoughts came back. And she was done.
