Lost .

it happened again

I feel like I've lost myself again.
It's not the first time,
but it's the only thing I've been crying for most of the time.
Crying for the person I used to be,
whom I totally lost,
and the person in the present who has no clue about the future.
Did I lose myself again just because I was trying to find the best version of me?
My mind's empty.
I feel myself sinking.
The darkness is deep and cold.
I wish I could sleep for as long as I could.
I don't want to think anymore...

-sweksha