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Untitled Part 25

In that heart-breaking moment, she didn't know where she was running to, or how long she'd been running, all she could think of was to get as far away from them as possible, it was too much for her poor heart to bear. To her relief, most of the people were focused on their full-contact sparring, a few that had noticed her cared little about her strange behavior, they didn't even bother to look at her again as if they were mad at her for such unnecessary distraction during the training. She just didn't give a shit about it anymore, she desperately wanted to be alone right now.

She stopped running when she stumbled to a quiet corner that was occupied by various equipments and giant crates. Craving for her own privacy, she went behind the stacked crates to shut herself out completely from view. She sat on the ground and hugged her knees, the tears just wouldn't stop, she wiped them away with her hands, but more came down like a running faucet. She gave up, her tears flowed freely and she was unable to contain them no more. She buried her face into her arm, letting all the emotions out.

She'd never been in love before, not even once, she didn't know it would hurt this much, it felt like some part of her died inside, and her defense mechanism was trying to keep her alive by slowly scraping the dead flesh away. What had happened to her? There were billions of people on earth, why couldn't she just pick an ordinary human guy to fall in love with? She wished she'd locked a part of herself up, so he couldn't break her, obviously that was a bit too late, when did she fall for him? She didn't know, it all started with sex, nothing but hot, steamy sex! No promises or commitment, and she was stupid enough to let him take over her heart that easily. She knew he was not human, that fact alone should deter her from falling in love with him, what the hell was she thinking? They were not even remotely compatible, no matter how strong and capable he was to her eyes, this relationship would never be acknowledged in either society. Clearly she had lost her mind.

And what else she knew about him? As ridiculous as it may sounded, she barely knew him, if it wasn't for Gahtan, she'd still be kept in the dark. The only comforting part of this painful relationship was he seemed to carry certain clout among his people and very popular with females. She thought about his sexy, gravelly voice, how very much poised and competent he was. At least she had a good taste. She wished they had never left that planet, she wished they had never come here. Now, they had argued for the first time, she had her heart broken, her throat was dry from all the sobbing she did, and all that crying had left her exhausted.

When her tears finally stopped, she started to think what was going to happen to them, she knew he cared about her, he'd told her he wanted to stay with her, additionally, he must remain his loyalty to his clan, that was all the commitment he could give her in this interspecies relationship. Fuck, she wanted to stay with him so bad, but she couldn't even accept the idea of him being in bed with another woman, it'd unquestionably crush her inside and out. So what he saved her twice, that did not give him the right to hurt her like this, it was unfair, she cursed again. She was faced with a dilemma. She had to make a choice.

Wiping her face clean, she took a deep breath and stepped out from the hidden corner. She walked around like a husk whilst checking the complex surroundings in hope to find out where she was. Stopping before a holographic screen, she watched the projected vessel floating in the center with indecipherable alien letters, she assumed it was a sort of directory, she touched on the imagine, and the complex interior layout of the vessel unfolded, she gazed at it in confusion. Where the fuck am I? She wanted to cry again as feelings of both uselessness and worthlessness washed over her.

"Are you lost, hooman?" Someone spoke behind her.

The sudden voice startled her, causing her to turn around immediately, she gasped to move away from the sand brown body, it was the blooded yautja who had taken an interest in her during the feast. How long has he been standing here? It was unnatural how very light they were on their feet for such a big body.