𝑹𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒊𝑵𝒂𝒌𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒓𝒂.

༶⁠ ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ 𝟾 ༶⁠

It's been a day or two since I'm back to my regular routine. I've not noticed him since the last he came at my place. I guess so he's busy with the preparations. No, I'm not saying that he's gonna propose me. I mean I don't actually know about his feelings. Sometimes I doubt whether whatever I'm thinking or acting is appropriate or not but I just can't help with it. We all students are going for a trip and he's busy with the same. The most unrealistic thing which has happened is we had decided Goa as the picnic spot and our college agreed with it. I'm so happy. I really wanted to enjoy the air of Goa with my friends but my parents won't allow me. This time our college is taking all of us there, so this is a golden opportunity for me to enjoy as much as I want. Well, the main thing which I've planned is 'confession.' Yeah, I want to clear all my doubts and want to state my feelings freely. I am nervous but as always I've taken the worst case scenario into consideration first. Even if he rejects me, I'll handle it. Afterall, I can't force anyone to love me.

My thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice.

"Naksh, Packing ho gayi tumhari?" Ruhana asked me.

"Haa, bas towel pack karna baki hai." I replied to which she turned to have a glance at my stuffs only to face palm herself.

"Yeh kya hai? Tum ye kapde le jaa rahi ho? Makeup kit toh chhod hi do ek sunscreen bhi nahi hai iss bag mein." Ruhana complained.

"Haa toh mujhe nahi lagta woh sab aur haa mujhe suncreen ki koi jaroorat nahi woh sun ko hi meri brightness dekhkar cream lagani padegi." I replied her getting offended by her continuous comments.

"Thik hai baba. Maine toh tumse kuch umeed rakhna hi chod diya hai. Lekin thode dhang ke kapde to liya kar. I mean Goa jaa rahe hai hum log. Thode girly type like one peice and all. Yeh kya tumne jeans, hoodie aur tshirt shorts leke rakhe hai." Ruhana suggested.

"You are very well aware that I ain't comfortable with all those clothes. And I'm not going to step out of my comfort zone." I replied with a stern voice through which she got a hint of me being annoyed.

"Okay, fine." she replied with hesitation and continued her work.

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We are all set for our journey now. Well, I'm feeling left out. Rajveer and Ruhana are in their own world. Don't know why but I'm getting a damn feeling that something is going on between these two. Ignoring them I occupied my seat. We are travelling through Railway. Konkan Kanya Express (Mumbai CSMT to Madgaon Jn.). It's 11:00 PM now and we are gonna reach our destination at 9:45 AM. It was a long journey. We all had our dinner before reaching the station so now we have nothing to do. I was reading my book as sleep was nowhere to take over me while others were busy in their own activities. Even though I was holding a book in front of me, my thoughts were only in one direction i.e. 'I haven't seen him yet.', 'Is he not accompanying us?', 'Where he is?' and all that stuff. I was busy in my thoughts and I was unable to recall when I fell asleep.

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I was continuously twisting and turning from one side to another because of some disturbance caused hampering my sleep. Someone was calling my name in low whispers someone was shaking me. I thought it would be some dream but the voice reached my ears and this time I could feel someone's hot breath on my neck. The only one thought that came to my mind was to get up and scream for help and to protect myself from the ghost. I sat up with a jolt and was about to scream when a palm covered my mouth. I was whimpering and wiggling to get out of the ghost's hold but I guess the ghost is a gym person. Suddenly I was lifted up in the air, the palm still covering my mouth. I bit it with my whole strength and heard a familiar groan but due to darkness, I was unable to see the person. I was taken out of the compartment near the door and moonlight fell on both of our faces. My honey brown orbs met that blue-green ones. The eye contact which I was yearning for from so many days. He was here. He was here for me. I was missing him and I could sense he too was missing me. I could see the longing in his eyes. Breaking the eye contact, I hugged him tightly only to get squeezed in his embrace. Breaking the hug, he passed me a genuine smile which I thought to keep safely in my heart because some moments are to be captured through our heart and not the camera. Noticing my reluctancy to leave him, he again took me in a tight hug while caressing my hair. For the first time, I was experiencing the feeling of being loved. I mean, our parents do love us the most and so did mine but each and every relationship comes with a responsibility with it, we cannot be that free with our parents though they can be friendly with us. I always wanted their time, but due to the responsibilities they had on themselves as well as their work never allowed them to spend some quality time with me. They do love me, they helped me grow, they helped me with my academic problems, they provided me with each and every facility they could and I will never ever forget their favours but sometimes I do wonder that providing the person in front of you with materialistic things is only considered to be loved? I still do yearn for their time. Well, I ain't complaining and I'm happy with what they gave me. But now, whatever I'm experiencing because of Rishi is something beyond everything. Something which cannot be explained verbally but can only be felt. A pure bond, with no limits, no boundaries, no responsibilities, no obligations, no competition only formed on the basis of trust, respect, support, care, acceptance and convergence of two souls with flaws as well as perfections. I never thought such type of feelings do exist. Though am a reader but I never once believed such things or feelings and only considered them to be unrealistic but now that I'm experiencing them it feels surreal. I finally broke the hug and we sat in the door. I know it's quite risky but we Indian people love to take such risks plus a teenager tomboy like me is eager to try new adventures taking risks and especially the ones which people try to refrain me from doing. It's next level fun. He settled himself behind me back hugging me while I rested my head on his shoulders. Height difference which is usually termed as cute. Don't know for how long we sat there under the moonlight in a comfortable silence. Sometimes I wonder, how can people survive without uttering a word for minutes but now that I'm experiencing it, I can say that when you're with the person you love, that silence is also comfortable.

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When I got up, I was at my own place, tucked in a blanket. A smile formed on my face remembering last night and my cheeks turned red. I was now determined to confess my feelings for him. Getting up, I went to freshen up. We were going to reach our destination in 2 hours. I haven't seen him since last night. I guess so his seat is reserved in other compartment. But it's okay after all, he met me last night. Those 2 hours went in a blink and now we are heading towards our hotel room. I was sharing my room with Ruhana and he was having his own seperate room which every professor and college staff had. Well, I was happy that he was having his own seperate room. Please don't consider me that desperate type of person, but I would really like to spend some time with him and let him know my feelings.