Love me like you do

Chapter 13

"F*ck."

"Missy?"

"Sarah! Hi, how was your trip?"

"What are you doing here?"

"We played with the boys; our trip got cancelled. So, we met online."

"Ah yeah."

"Anyway then, I just wanted to leave anyway. I will let you two alone then."

"Yeah better for you. You're too innocent for what will follow.", I just looked at Avan but he whispered sorry.

"Dammit! Why am I even doing this?", I mumbled to myself on the way home. I hated the thought that he would love her now, just a few hours after we did the same.

I was scared I would ruin her life, but in this moment, I wanted him for myself.

I immediately went to my room when I got home, I didn't want to speak to anyone, I was the bad guy no matter what.

"Mason?", my mom knocked.

"Go away!", I let myself fall face first on the bed.

"Come on sweetie, what's wrong?", she came in and sat next to me.

"Nothing. Leave me alone."

"Nothing sounds different. So what did he do?"

"Mom."

"I know it's something love related and I know you like him."

"You won't leave before I told you, will you?"

"No."

"Fine. Yesterday we went out. We went to a small cosy restaurant I liked, he even gifted me a suit and the snow globe I liked."

"Which restaurant?"

"When we went to the mall with Sarah, she left with her friends to party and I told him it was too loud and full for me, he said he knew the perfect place for me. He respects all my issues, even my weird sensory issues."

"It sounds like he likes you. Are you sure he's not just trying to be your friend?"

"Yes."

"You seem very sure, how comes?"

"I don't want to say that, I just know."

"Did you kiss?"

"Yeah, that too. But he kissed me first."

"And he doesn't do it just for fun?"

"Mom! No! I....I don't think he does.", I felt my eyes getting wet.

"Mason, did you....?"

"Yes, I slept with him! And I loved every second of it!"

"I meant if you thought about the consequences."

"Oh....well, yes, but for once I didn't care. Maybe I just don't want to think of the risk that he could just use me."

"Sweetie."

"But he was so kind, if I was just a second option, why would he care about my panic attacks and help me get over them?"

"You have panic attacks?", she asked in shock.

"Yeah, since 8 years."

"Oh my god. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know. I didn't want to bother you with that. You had enough trouble with Sarah."

"But you're our son. We just take care of her because her parents left."

"I know, but still. And then in school I started to have those attacks, because I was the outsider. And when Avan came over to play video games he made me so nervous, I started to panic."

"And he managed to calm you down?"

"Yeah, he was very understanding and didn't hurry me to calm down."

"He really likes you. I would even say he loves you."

"I wish, but he's with Sarah now, I don't even want to know what they are doing, she kicked me out earlier, saying I was too innocent. I want to switch with her now."

"If he really loves you he will leave Sarah."

"But then I'm the one who ruined her life."

"When she first brought him in had a feeling they don't fit together, like most of her relationships. And you can't control who you fall in love with, but it seems like it's not an unrequired crush."

"You're not mad?"

"I'm just a bit sad you didn't tell me about your problems."

"I'm sorry. I will from now on."

The next few days were calm, but I didn't see him for the entire week, they stayed at his apartment.

I also didn't talk to Sarah, I wanted to avoid her at all costs.

But then Avan rang the door.

"Hello honey!", Sarah opened and immediately hugged him.

"Hey, why the greeting?"

"Can't I hug the most perfect man alive?", I really wanted to throw up hearing this, I felt horrible.

"What do you want to buy now?"

"There's such a cute designer bag at the mall."

"How much?"

"250."

"250?! Is that really necessary?"

"Please.", she said with puppy eyes.

"Fine, but that's the last time for now. I still need money for myself.", but he winked at me, and I blushed.

"Thanks, love."

"So, what I wanted to say, as our trip got cancelled, we do the trip next weekend."

"Can't you stay at home?", she begged.

"No, you get your trips I get mine. Ey Mason?"

"Huh?", I looked up.

"Want to join us?"

"To the trip?"

"No, the museum, of course to the trip."

"I doubt this is a good idea."

"But there's one room left in the hut we rented, and we have to pay anyway. Also, they have an arcade, lots of game shops and we can even climb on a parkour."

"I don't know what to say."

"Yes. Come on it will be fun."

"Mom?"

"You're old enough sweetie."

"Okay, I'll come with you."

"Nice. We'll pick you up then."

The week passed very fast, and I got really nervous, it would be the first time I would meet his friends in real life and spend 3 days with him.

On the early Friday noon, he picked me up and we drove about two hours to the location.