"Brayn let me in!" I yell at the door. Kicking and punching at it "Johnnie I know you're in there!" I keep yelling and lunging myself until it brakes open.
I run from room looking for them. Then I see the shadow on the carton. I run and slam the glass door sideways and saw Johnnie was sitting there crying ready to jump off the pateo.
I look at him and say, "You're nohing, you're a waste of air, of space, your a defect, a fake and shitty person, I wish I never fucking met you! "I yell at him starting to cry myself. "You fucking jump!!" I scream at him and walk up to him.
The only words he can mumble out are "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He repeats as his face gets redder as I pull him in to a kiss.
It only lasts for about two seconds than I step back and whisper, "I hate you.." as I watch him look down at the pavement below. "Wimp!" I say thinking he would to it.
"I'm not a wimp" he hissed between the sad sounds of his sarrows.
"Than do it, fucking end your life make all the people that care about you suffer! Make me suffer! Make the earth suffer for your selfishness!" he slides his butt off the railing and I can hear his body hit the ground with a splat.
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I jump up from the couch, out of breath and shocked how real that dream felt. I could feel his kiss and hate for what he was doing but, how the hell could I do that to him. Like he meant nothing to me? How could I be so mean? So stupid? The worst fear I have ever had wasn't about bugs or the dark. It was hurting the people I love. Even if they didn't know I did.
I've been having dream like this since I first moved in. Which to this day, is a week. The banging was now loud music. At least it was the type of music I like and not some barbie shit.
I get up and rinse my face off it was about two in the morning. I could tell because my phone got a text, but I didn't bother to look at it. Still shaky from my dream, I walked to the kitchen and grabbed my laptop and some corrots. I went to youtube and saw Brayn and Johnnie doing the Charlie Charlie challenge. So I clicked on it.
I got through most of it when I heard the same thing I heard in the hallway. The "Brayn I'm scared" I snapped ... this can't happen? I rewind it and I see myself in the backround behind Johnnie's shoulder. I am now wide awake, and look up at the wall with the ptv music blasting.
They live next door..... THEY LIVE NEXT DOOR!!! I started fangirling and I couldn't stop thinking for the rest of the night. I just lay on my couch thinking I'm litterlay a few yards away from
Them...
