stuck (old vers.)

16.

Ngl I listened to Melanie Martinez the whole time I was writing chapter 15 🤩

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Mason(20) pov:

I sink deeper into my bathtub,my hair floating around me as my body kept bobbing up due to the oxygen in my lungs. James had stayed round the night and now it was Friday and was around 7 am, sleep didn't seem like an option, so I gave up about four hours ago. I could feel the cold water freezing my back, so I reach forward and I pull the plug out and I shake my hair like a dog.

My hand trails down my stomach and towards my pelvis, I trail an old scar before stoping a small shiver breached my mouth as I stand up, i run my hands through my hair and get any water i could out, I reach for a brown large towel, i scrub my hair roughly then I drag the towel around my body before wrapping it around my waist tightly and I step out the tub.

I stand still for a minute  before i move towards my mirror. I let my eyes take in my appearance. my face was puffy and thin, a lot paler then a couple days ago, my blue eyes -turning more grey with age- sore, my eyebrows were growing out and I had a small stubble growing. The hair looking more grey then white.

My body was thinner, and the cuts I got from the robbery -Well failed robbing- scabbed over but still see-able, my left ring finger traced over the arm wound while my right index finger on my torso, I do that for a few minutes before shuddering away from my own touch.

I rub my eyes before opening my bathroom door and stepping out my house was quiet, which was normal, but usually hope would message about one of the boys yelling 'balls n' all!' - because that's very funny- when seeing animals, but not anymore, I mean death isn't something I was sheltered from but still, it doesn't get easier, it hits and turns and toys you as you just want to go move on.

I shake my head again as I walk into my bedroom, I open my -still broken- closet doors, i shovel through a few shirts before choosing a dark green tee that had a pocket in the left side, I place the t-shirt onto my bed -that had dark blue sheets on-

I reach for my roll on deodorant on my left night stand and I pop the lid and use it, I shove the lid back on and place it back before resting my arms ontop of my head as I thought about ways to keep my book interesting, I also had a date...wait! Is it a date?

A date with elijah...

I shrug my shoulders at the thought, "he is cute" I mumble to myself as I shove my t-shirt on and I pull out some black jeans that had a few small rips on the knee and thigh.

The front pockets being fake still annoys me but the back pockets where ok.

I shove on some underwear before putting on the jeans -my feet getting stuck in the strings a few times- I finally get them through when a message from Luna comes through

♤♤
☆Lu lu☆:

I can't reach Marshall.

Me:

Want me to stop by his before I meet up with my editor?

☆Lu lu☆:
Yes pls 🫂

I'm just a bit worried that's all

Me:
Understand, keep calling him and I'll head over

☆lu lu☆:

Okiii

Have fun ;)

Me:

Ur so annoying 😂

Ty tho

☆Lu lu☆:

<3

♤♤

I chuckle as I heart her last massage, I find a par of black socks and I put them on and I pick up a small dark green tote bag, I make sure I had all my things; my phone, wallet, peppermint pack of gum x 6 -a pack of gum that holds six smaller packs- and some earphones that I got a couple months ago.I dig out my love box and I grab the key from around my neck -the string damp from the water- making me cringe slightly I bring the box up and I slide the purple key inside. I twist it till the lid popped open, I sniff as I set it back onto the floor and my hand shakes before i open the lid my eye's sting with tears, "im going to need another love box soon if you all keep leaving" I say to myself out loud and I chuckle "im thinking on digging up that time capsul me and dad did, I might find some little videos I did" I say as I smile as I pick up a photo of me and my dad.