life after hell

dream memories

(Storm/lexas first session with Dr Charles after 5 months living with voight)

Today voight asked me to go see Dr Charles from the hospital and I want to but I'm scared.

"You'll be ok no one at med is going to hurt you" he tried to reassure me but he has to work so I don't have anyone else.

"Ok" I got my bag together but I'm still scared. I never leave without voight and he doesn't get annoyed but I don't wanna bother him either.

"Talk to me"

"How long am I gonna stay here?" I didn't wanna make voight mad but if Hailey was right he shouldn't have kept me this long.

"I told u as long as u want . Y?" He actually looked confused

"At the hospital Hailey said ya was gonna get tired and forget I existed" I was scared I made Hank mad cause he looked enraged "I'm sorry"

I tried to get up "I'm not mad at you"

Hank makes me feel safe but I still dream about the other guy . I can't remember who or if he's anybody to me.

"I'm gonna drive u there and I'll get Al to pick u up ok. U can hang out with us ok" I smiled and soon he dropped me off at med as he went to work.
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(Hank)

I soon got to 21 and I wasn't bullshitting when I saw Hailey. She got a 6 week suspension but this is the last straw

"What did u say to lexa at the hospital"

We sat in my office as she tried to explain how saying that in front of a 15 year old is ok

"Ur fired " was all I said as miller came in. "leave or I'll have u escorted out"

Haley grabbed her stuff and huffed out as I went about my day
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(Storm/lexa)

I sat and waited as dr.charles finally came in and I wanted to surprise him so I shook his hand. I didn't feel the panic I usually do.

He smiled and sat

"So sarge t voight tells me you are having nightmares?"

I nodded"sometimes they are but sometimes it's like a recurring memory of people I can't place.

I pulled out my drawings and showed him .

"These are what u see ?"

"It's always this cabin and there's 2 guys pulling up on these big trucks. They wave at me cause I'm playing and suddenly I hear "storm come eat" from the younger one and I pet the dog as I go up the stairs sometimes it's a guy pickinge up Putin me on a stool but the bad one are as soon as I go in the screen door slams Nd mama jumps me "

"Have u ever heard of dream memories?"

I shook my head and he explained

"Some victims of trauma who go thru anything similar than you can forget the life before and the memories can resurface years later . Do u remember your life before Chicago?"

I shook my head and told him " mama said the past is the past and my daddy and brotha ain't want me so we ran. Had to hide in the woods cause daddy would hurt us if he found us. "

I didn't want to talk"in these dreams u said the young guy calls u storm?"

He just nodded and talked as the session was as  long as I wanted

"How do I like living with Sargent voight"

"He's ok I like that he don't push . Him or mr.al"

"Ur accent is very distinctive I wish I could place it but tell me lex what do u want to be when your old enough"

"I kinda wanted to join the Marines or the air force "

"U like the military ?"

I nodded "thought it be a good way to get away from mama but I actually have liked it long as I can remember"

He nodded and smiled as I layed back on his couch

"So sarge t voight tells me u don't like your name?"

"It's not that I don't like it it just don't feel right. Mama said she changed it but I never could find my birth certificate or nuttin"

"And storm was what u were called in the dream?"

I just nodded as his phone went off" I'm sorry I need to go to the ER. I can call Sargent voight for u if u wish"

"That's ok he said mr.al will come when I text"

He walked me downstairs but I discovered my phone voight got me was dead so I walked up front but I didn't see him so i walked to the desk.

The woman behind the counter didn't see me but I was too scared to ask so I went to sit but the nice doctor from the ER saw me "lexa right?"

I nodded and he kneled in front of me as I sat "are u ok"

I was scared but I whispered "voight said to let him know when I was done with Dr Charles but my phone's dead'

There were to many people and I was scared and I guess he noticed " I know u don't know me that well but I'm off and can drop u at home"

I wanted out of this waiting room "he said come to the station"

I wasn't trying to get sick but I was hypavetalatin

"Come on" I nodded fast and followed him.

He soon oulled up in front of 21 and I was relieved when I saw miss Trudy

"Is she ok?"

"She almost had a panic attack and her phones dead so I said I'd drop her off"

I stood there as I was now calm and Ms Trudy just smiled "come on kid"

"Yes ma'am" my voice is finally back to normal but I still get scared around women who I don't know

"So what do you want to do till voight gets off?" I laughed and I just pulled out my pad as she was eating some cake

"We had a birthday today say whens yours" ?

I shrugged "don't know don't rememba"

"Ok then" she went out and soon voight came down as it was time to head home

As we went in I went to my room and when I came down for suppa ms.trudy and Mr Al were here

I saw a big cake and looked at them accordingly

"Every kid needs a birthday" voight whispered as we cut it

After they left and I loaded the dishwasher voight wanted to know what Dr Charles said

"He said the dreams could be memories from before trying to come back . And he said my name might be storm since lexa don't feel right.
Then he just asked me what I wanted to be once I'm 18 and I just told him about the Marines "

"Marines"?

Voight looked genuinely concerned but I smiled"iv always liked them and I wanna learn to be more than the girl whose mama starved and beat her voight"

He hugged me"if that's what u wanna do the next year and a half we will spend getting ready ok. "

I smiled and he asked "so will u please call me Hank u don't work for me"

I hugged him and whispered back "thanks Hank"