우리 Princess || Seventeen's 14th member

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(My Entire Life -A documentary series)

-trainee life-
life when i was a trainee was harsh and worse than i thought. there were several monthly evaluations and eliminations and during that moment, i was contemplating whether to quit being a trainee and give up on the opportunity to debut. But somebody told me not to give up and said that i could debut someday, hopefully in Seventeen, but at that time, i knew debuting in an all-boys group ain't gonna happen. But then, it kinda drove me to working hard and not give up. I remember when i had to move to Korea to become a trainee, i had to leave my brothers behind, and i had to give up my university opportunity because i wanted to be an idol. My mom accompanied me to Korea, so i was in a very long-distance "relationship" with my brothers because we were so far away, i didn't know when we're going to see one another again. when i first became a trainee, i remember i had 0 experience whatsoever in singing or even dancing. so i had to learn it myself. i had vocal teachers, dance instructors, rap mentors. once, i was completely burnt out from all the training and i cried in the practice room. i called my mom saying that i want to quit and go back to China to study in university because i knew that going to university would ultimately decide my future career and my life choices. so my mom said that she would write a letter to pd-nim to give me a week's leave and spend some time with my brothers, given that i don't quit being a trainee. my brothers encouraged me to keep trying and not giving up because being an idol was my ultimate dream. so i took their advice and 4 days later, i went back to Korea to continue training.

-after trainee life-
things got better afterwards. i was ranked the first in the last monthly evaluation before being announced that i was finally going to debut. i shared an amazing bond with the other trainees from different countries and i had 3 close friends from my hometown, Chongqing. when they knew i was going to debut, they were extremely happy for me and we promised to meet up soon. my mom went back to Chongqing after finding out that i was going to debut, knowing that i would be in safe hands. i met the boys a week later and i officially moved into the dorms.

-early moments before official debut with Seventeen-
i remember thinking 쿱스 오빠 was the scariest member of the group, but he turned out to be the most purest soul on earth. wonwoo 오빠 too. he looked cold and indifferent to my arrival in the group, but then he was the one who knew my troubles and my stress. we became the best of friends afterwards. he kinda hated me from the start, then during a conversation in the park, i realised that he had to be protected and i could be the one who would make him happier.