Games & Temptations {A Radiodust Fanfiction}

.~*How I Died*~.

I know I promised to upload a chapter yesterday but I had an exam today so here is the chapter. Sorry for the delay. Love you all! :)

TW: Abuse, Self-harm and Overdose

Angel was back from work. A smile was plastered on his face as he got ready in his dressing room. He started shivering. His body was paining. He was so done with his life. But he didn't cry. He kept the smile on his face as he covered multiple bruises. His make up brush hiding every wound on his beautiful skin. By the time he was done, his skin looked flawless as always. He shuddered as he knew they only covered himself. He was in too much pain.

Turnin' up emotional faders
Keep repeatin' self-hatin' phrases
I have heard enough of these voices
Almost like I have no choice

He slowly falls to his knees as he tries his best to keep smiling.

This is biological stasis
My mood's shiftin' to manic places
Wish I laughed and kept the good friendships
Watch life, here I go again

He grabs a bottle of drugs and starts emptying them while wishing he had let Charlie help him.

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry, this is the end

He holds back his tears as he keeps smiling while staring at the drugs.

My biggest enemy is me, pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me, pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me ever since day one
Pop a 911 then pop another one.

Angel grabbed his phone, wondering who to call. After a moment of thinking he calls his three friends.

Keep my dolls inside diamond boxes
Save 'em 'til I know I'm gon' drop this
Front I've  built around the oasis
Paradise is in my hand

"Are you drunk right now?" Blitzø asked. "Angie?" Cherri called in a worried tone. "Is everything okay?" Fizz asked.

Holdin' on so tight to this status
It's not real but I'll try to grab it
Keep myself in beautiful places
Paradise is in my hands

"Angel?" Fizz called out as light sobs and gulps were heard.

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry, this is the end

"Angel, nothing is going to be the end." Cherri murmured. "Angel put down the bottle, please." Blitzø was now worried for his friend.

My biggest enemy is me, pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me, pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me ever since day one
Pop a 911 and then pop another one

"Angel, please. This isn't the way." Fizz said. "And you can't die, Angie. You're just hurting yourself." Cherri added.

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry, this is the end