Fluffy Larry Stylinson One Shots

Panic attack

Tw!! in this story we are gonna talk about panic attacks and mental health I'm not going to go too deep in it but take care of yourself. If you are not in a good place now leave this story I have a lot of other stories you can read. 🤍 (Not edited)

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It's been 1 year.
1 year of being clean.
And honestly there was never a day that I didn't thought about relapsing.
But I need to keep going.
I need to stay strong and make him proud.

I need to keep going for Harry.

"Darling? Are you okay there?"

Harry took me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah I'm okay I'm almost ready." I said to him whose still outside of the bathroom. I love that he doesn't come in always he always make sure it's okay for him to come inside. I can't wish for a better boyfriend.

We are now 17 and 19. We met on X-Factor and honestly from the first time I saw him I knew he was the one. And god damn I was right those green eyes are the most beautiful ones I've ever seen.

"Louis we really need to go!" Harry is already waiting at the front door. We had a few weeks off before tour starts and we decided to go out for dinner with the other boys. Im actually happy that we have a break cause Harry and I don't have a lot of privacy on the tour bus. Even tho that the boys try to give us as much privacy as possible.

"I'm sorry love." I say quiet while I put my shoes on and walk to the door who's now being pulled open by Harry.

"Hey Lou is everything okay?" He looks worried at me. I can't tell him that it's getting bad again it's probably just for a few days.

"I'm good just not a very good day but don't worry. Common we need to get to the restaurant." I walk past Harry to his car and I got inside.

Harry close the door and locked it. He walks to his car and get inside looking worried at Louis.

"You know that we can stay home the boys wouldn't mind it." He turns to look at me.

"No it's okay I'm fine don't worry."

*Time skip to after they eat they are still at the restaurant.*

"Louis are you okay?" Zayn ask.

I look at him and nod. I didn't said that much and I feel guilty about it but I can't help it. I don't feel the need to talk to anyone honestly, I just want to lay in my bed just in silence with Harry holding me. Harry really is that comfort place for me since day one I felt so safe with him.

I wish I could tell him how I feel but I don't want him to worry about me.

Niall, Liam and Zayn are looking confused to Harry who said in silence "I don't know."

"Who wants to have a dessert?" Niall said after a few minutes of silence.

"I want!" Liam said.
"Yeah me too." Zayn said aswell.
"I'm full I ate way too much." The curly one said.

Everyone was looking at me. I got uncomfortable.

"Euhm I don't want to I'm okay I'm gonna to the toilet be right back." I walked away in the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. Just say it to Harry he can make me feel better again. Don't say it to him he's gonna be disappointed in you. I put a bit of water in my face when I heard the door opens. Harry.

"Darling can we talk?" He ask.

"Why? There is no need to talk." I looked way for my boy.

"Because I see that there is something going on and I want to be there for you. You don't need to tell me if you don't want to but just say if there is something wrong that I can be there for you, that I can cuddle with you, that I can give to you what you need." (Author// Go clean your brain bro) I don't say anything I don't look at him I'm just quiet. "Lou please talk to me." I feel tears coming in my eyes. I look up at him I almost can't see him because of the way my eyes are watery.
"It's okay to cry babe let it out I'm here to hold you if you want to." He opens his arms and without any seconds I'm sobbing in his arms.

We came back from the dinner. We needed to left I wanted to sleep. I'm waiting in our bed for Harry he's in the bathroom. He walks out of the bathroom and gets under the covers.

"Cuddle?"

I nod an lay in his arms. We felt asleep like this.

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I woke up in the middle of the night, turning my head I panicked Louis isn't next to me. I heard silence crying from the bathroom. I walk to the door.

"Darling?" Nothing
"Lou babe can I come in?"

"Please." It's so quiet that I almost can't hear it. I walk in and what I see makes my heart break into thousands of little pieces.

*Tw from now we are gonna talk about sh.*

"I-I-Im s-so sorry please don't be mad Harry. How can I ever be mad at him for this?

He was still next to the toilet with a bleeding pulse and arm.

"I'm gonna clean you up okay? Is that okay?" I asked. He nods.

I cleaned him up carefully and bought him back to our bed. I lay him carefully in our bed and I got in after him. He got closer to me.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

"I want to but I don't know what to say it just got bad and I wasn't able to say no to the voices in my head." He said quietly.

"That's okay I'm still so proud of you for being clean so long you are so strong. Just know that you can say everything to me I won't judge you." I gave him a kiss when he nodded I felt him falling asleep. Not long after I fell asleep as well with my beautiful boy in my arms.

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Thank you so much for reading this!
I'm sorry for being away for so long but I just didn't got the need to write and I want to keep this fun for you and for me.

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X Laura 🤍