Time Changes//LN4

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Landos POV

I wake up absolutely wasted. I look at the clock, it is only 4am. I try to be as quiet as possible as I step into the kitchen to get a glass of water. I only use the flashlight of my phone cause I don't wanna turn on any lights.

I leave the kitchen with my glass as I see a figure on the Balcony. "What in the world are you doing here?" I hear Ellie's Voice whisper, she drags me outside to talk. "Wait you're smoking again?" I ask suprised as I look in her hand. "Well no, technically yes, not really" sh stutters. "And what exactly is the mater you dragged me outside?" I know ask even more annoyed cause I start to freeze. She looks on the ground unsure "I didn't want to be alone" she acknowledged.

I suddenly felt her hand in mine, I look down and she quickly puts her hand away. "Sorry" she whispers "old habits?" I ask with a funny smile. She slaps my shoulder.

"Ellie can I tell you something?" I ask her and suddenly get serious, I can't keep this from her any longer. "I hope you know that you and especially Noah will be always number one" I explain and she just nods. "Well I thought that this would change when I get a girlfriend, but..." she looks at me confused. "Do you think I'm angry at you cause you have a girlfriend?" She now looks at me with even more confusion in her face. "Well the night Luisa and I broke up..." I began to stutter I don't even know why I tell her this „she said that she loved me but... she couldn't live with the fact that she will always be number two" I explain. "Why do you tell me this?" She looks and shrugs. "I don't know" I just respond, I really don't know I just thought that she would have to know it. "You shouldn't have told me that lando..." I can hear her voice shaking.

It was a wired situation as neither of us knew what we wanted to say. "I think it's time to go back in" she says after about thirty seconds of silence. She opens the door quietly to not wake up Noah, I laugh as she walks up the stairs. "What?" She looks at me with a confused face "do you remember when we came home from our graduation party and your parents were already asleep?" I asks and she giggles.

She opens up the door to her bedroom and for some reason I go There with her. I don't know what I was even thinking it was just so natural. "Don't you think that could be the day Noah..." I joke. "It isn't" she answers exactly. "You really think you know it?" I ask suprised. "I can't believe I missed out so much of his childhood, I mean he's going to be in school next year" I tell her. "Considering you missed out so much of his life he still loves you the most" she jokes. "No seriously Lando, you are his hero. He tells all his friends about you every day and the orange cars daddy drives. He is your biggest smallest supporter" she tells me with a loving face. "And you?" I ask. I don't know what I was even think or expecting her to say. "I mean do... what do you feel about me" I try to save my dilemma. "I mean you are Noah father" she stutters "but I don't know what to think about you" she explains. Wow, what was I supposed to make out of this situation. "I can still remember when we broke up and everyone tells me that I know have a baby and I should move on, I mean how should I move on when I'm stuck with a mini version of you? And still it is often times so confusing when people still ship us, like don't get me wrong it is not because I don't like you but I feel uncomfortable. But pleas remember that the most important person you are is Noah's dad and that will always be the biggest spot in my heart" she tells me.

"Would you say you still love me?" I ask, at this point I lost all hope to turn the conversation.