serendipity | kth | completed

chapter 14

today is the day of my sister's wedding.

today is also one of the days where i feel my worst.

i have a pounding headache, my body feels weak and any ounce of movement causes complete pain, and to tie it all off i'm hunched over the toilet bowl right now spewing out my insides. i locked the door to prevent taehyung from coming inside and attempting to be of any assistance. today marks the day where he will no longer be my caretaker.

i feebly reach up and press down on the trip handle to flush the toilet. i stand to my feet and scoot in front of the mirror to immediately begin brushing my teeth.

my eye bags were heavy and my cheeks looked sunken. my eyes struggled to pry themselves open, and the crust was extremely evident in them. all i wanted to do was lay down, but i knew that today i'd have to fight through it for my sister, who still didn't know about my underlying health.

i smoothed down the pastel blue silk dress. all of the bridesmaids were given the same dress; it stopped just above my kneecaps, and it was a straight form with no ruffles or ripples. it had thin spaghetti straps and i thought it was perfectly simple.

i stared down at the tablets in my hand before my focus was broken by the sound of him entering the bathroom. i shot him a quick glance before throwing my head back and swallowing the pills. he looked so handsome in the suit we'd chosen.

it was a light grey, and he had gotten a light blue tie that matched the shade of my dress. he was still afraid to speak to me, and i was still too mad to speak to him, so we stood there adjusting ourselves in complete silence. i finished up with my hair and left him in the bathroom alone; the tension alone was just too suffocating.

we walk down the grass pathway, but we are not hand in hand, our arms aren't even linked. i'm just a few centimeters ahead of him as i catch sight of eunjae and jason. eunjae's dress is similar to mine, but there's a beautiful bow tied around the back just to help the attendees catch sight of who the special maid-of-honor is.

"hey sis, finally made it." i hug her and greet jason as taehyung stands behind me. his hands are dug in his pockets as his eyes mindlessly wander. "there was bit of traffic. jane chose a beautiful place." my eyes scan the mountain top grassland that everything was settled on.

eunjae nodded in response, "i see she didn't follow through with your black wedding idea." i shrug and peer down at my dress, "i think im loving the powder blue theme a tad bit more."

"taehyung! hey man." i watch as jason daps up taehyung as he beams happily. his muscular arms tug at the fabric of his suit. "hey jason." taehyung dryly replies and folds his lips. his entire demeanor was off and i couldn't help but feel bad. was i making him act this way? oh what kind of question is that, y/n? of course you're making him act this way.

"hey guys," i hear that familiar monotonous yet melodic voice chime and spin around. "glad you could all make it." it's beom tailored in his white suit that hugged his lean figure. he smiles and gently bows forward causing his black strands to fall over. "glad we could be here, man." jason lands a strong hand on beom's shoulder causing him to stumble.

he regains his composure and clears his throat. "yes, well the ceremony is about to begin so get comfortable." with a final nod he retreats to the wedding arbour which is covered in bright flowers.

jason goes to stand along the line of groomsmen as beom's best man is his own father. i walk along the line of bridesmaids and stand behind eunjae; i was still offended that jane had chosen her over me, but nonetheless, i was excited for my sister.

i look towards taehyung who's found a seat in the middle of the rows. his eyes are planted on the ground and i can't help but frown. i was still angry with him but it frustrated me, because i didn't quite know exactly what i was angry about.

the euphonious music begins to sound and this cues the attendants to stand. i watch heartedly as jane emerges from the big tree which looms over her figure. her dress is big and fluffy with layers on top of layers of white. it's diamonds sparkle and shimmer under the sun with each step she takes. the back of the dress drags along perfectly, and i can't help the tears that well in my eyes.

my mother stands in the front row and cries joyfully as she continuously snaps pictures on her handheld camera from 2008.

there's a little girl giggling joyfully as she runs down the middle and throws petals along the pathway. following her arm in arm comes jane and my father. they near closer and closer until my father hands her off to beom.

slowly he reaches up and removes the wedding veil from her face. his smile widens and his eyes glisten. i could tell beom loved her to all extremities and that's all i ever want for my sisters.

i find my eyes wandering off into the distance. far away where i see a blue jay text rest on the branch of another tree which was perched right on the edge of the hill. the sound of the waves crashing and the seagulls squawking all fill my eardrums. i find myself slowly becoming overstimulated.

i look towards the priest whose mouth moves, but i can't understand a word he's saying. i look towards the crowd of people who all sit quietly with grins on their faces and contentment in their gestures. everything seems to be a blur.

but suddenly they stand to their feet and begin clapping, i turn my attention to beom and jane whose lips are now pressed firmly upon one another. i follow suit in the applause and suddenly the silent ringing comes to a halt. everything is clear now and im able to focus on the couple in front of me.

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i've had a great time at the wedding; talking to my family, dancing with friends, and of course the food. my sickness hadn't gotten the best of me today and i'm glad that this morning was the only obstacle i suffered with this morning.

i took a seat at an empty table after i had once again fallen short of breath after all the dancing i'd done. i'd won limbo, so that gave me my ounce of satisfaction. i heard the seat beside me scoot and as i looked to my left was taehyung who has not been by my side throughout the entire reception.

i don't blame him, ive blatantly been ignoring him, but him even sitting next to me was a huge step forward. "can we please talk?" i sigh and look over at him, his entire expression seemed tired and mopey. "about what, taehyung?"

"us. i just want you to hear me out." i turn my gaze away from him and take a sip of my drink. "y/n please." he whispers and grabs my hand. "i don't want-"

i'm cut off as he stands to his feet and throws me over his shoulder. his hand smooths down my dress over my butt so my undergarments can't be seen. as grateful as i am for this gesture, i can't help the immense amount of embarrassment i feel as he trudges out of the ball room. i can feel the many eyes on us but he seems not to care at all.

once we reach the hall he finally drops me to my feet. i'm cornered at the end of the hall where i finally smooth down my dress and punch his shoulder, which doesn't make him budge at all. "what the hell is wrong with you?"

"if that was the only way you would leave so be it." i scoff and point towards the room he had just hauled me out of only seconds ago. "taehyung my entire family just saw that."

"i don't care, y/n, that's the least of my concerns right now. you haven't talked to me all day, and for what? because i care for you?"

"because you invaded my privacy. i was going to tell you when i was ready." i feel myself once again becoming light headed, but i try my best to ignore it. i stumble just a tad and this immediately catches his attention. i angrily unbuckle the belt on my heels and kick them off.

"i understand that, i really do, it was never my intention to snoop. but i know now, and there's nothing we can do except move on, y/n." i attempt to respond but each time i open my mouth nothing comes out.

the weight of my body becomes too much to bear and i slowly topple over. i feel myself fall into his arms before he sweeps my legs up and holds me bridal style. there's worry evident all over his face and my eyes slowly blink open then shut repeatedly. my eye lids felt so heavy, i didn't know how long i could keep them open. his eyes search before he darts towards the elevator doors.

"it's okay baby, i got you. don't worry." he reassures as he reaches over and presses the one displayed on the buttons. it's the last thing i see before i succumb to the urge to rest my eyes.

end.