Dear Child of God,
My mum is a single parent. When I was younger, from the time I was born till I was about 5 years old, I was okay with that. I didn't care much about it. I mean, I was a child who was fed, well loved by her mum, all her aunts and uncles, I was so spoiled by them that I didn't even feel his absence. It wasn't until age 6 that I started to feel the absence of my father.
That day in elementary school, all my classmates spoke about their dads and then there was me, seated at the side of the class with nothing to say. A girl asked me and I told the whole class I didn't have a dad. I cried and it passed. What I didn't expect was for my family friend who was also my classmate to tell her mum about it. I remember her mum sat with me during pick up hours and she told me how I had a dad. I listened to what she said but I didn't know another surprise awaited me. My mum had heard about the incident. My mum sat me down and for the first time, we spoke about my dad and she promised to take me to see him.
We saw him days later but it wasn't any better than the time before I met him because I didn't feel loved by him. From that time I stopped thinking about him until I got into high school. I went to a boarding school. During visiting days, fathers and mothers came for their kids but for me, it was just my mum and sometimes my extended family would come. Watching my mum struggle to pay my fees also made me feel life would have been better for her if my father had at least assisted. There were times I cried, times I felt bad and times I even tried reaching out to him to see if he would maybe want to talk but He sounded so monotone that with time, I lost interest in reaching out to him.
In 2021, I officially gave my life to Christ. I remember so well because during that month, June, I had experienced more miracles and had a lot of testimonies than I had ever imagined. It was during that month that I got to understand that even though my earthly father was absent, my heavenly father was ever present and I wasn't lacking in any way. Things might have been hard through my childhood but I did not lack anything. Anything I and my mum needed, God provided. When I finally understood that I had the ultimate source, I started to call God my Abba and even when I asked for the silliest of things, so long as they are good for me, He always provided and He still provides.
Why am I telling this story? Many of us, even though we are Christians, only have a "master-servant" relationship with God. That was what I had before 2021 but the Bible has made it clear that we are children of God. You should of course respect God and do His commands but He is also your father. Build a relationship with Him, communicate more about your emotions with Him. Ask Him even the silliest of things and if it is His will, if it is good for you, you will receive it. God is our Abba and like I said in the earlier chapters, we can lose anything but not our fellowship with God, not our fellowship with Abba.
God bless you.
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