My famous family ?

chapter 19

(Azure p.o.v.)

I'm still in the hospital Joy and Dallas left now it's just Dustin he hasn't left he's the only one that has stayed, A boy around my age named Pj comes in my room every day he's in a wheelchair I see him flying up and down the hallway in his wheelchair I look over and I see Dustin sleeping on the couch I open my journal grabbing a pencil I take a deep breath thinking about my childhood what should I put next many people don't know my childhood so maybe age four or five

When I was four in a half we moved to Ireland a short while after Kasey and Holly was born Madison,Allyson and me got to help name them but a four,five and six year old trying to name them is not very helpful it was more of Dustin and Carson naming them Dustin was 8 and Carson was 7 Carson named Kasey that name because he likes the name Casey but he wanted it to fit a girl and be a little different Dustin named Holly her full first name is Hollywood when

I was four things got harder not in money but in a attention I mean once Skye,Nash,Nick,Rex and Jax were born I got very little attention but then again they hardly got any attention so adding two more kids if you got attention it was very slim and all we had was one nanny so Dustin,Carson,Madison,Ashton Allyson going to school full time they also when to a daycare type thing and the nanny had to pick them up at 7 p.m. Joy,Gia,Kali and I would go to nursery school then to the daycare the other people

I would hangout with when they weren't fighting Bairre he was my best friend Joy is my other half when I was 13 my mum had Lilly,Luke, Lucas,Neil and Levi this was the second time my mum cheated on Da he never knew till he seen red hair on 3 of their heads so back on topic I would hangout with Bairre my cousin even when they were having a fight one time they had a really bad fight after we moved back to England

I snuck over to there house for the weekend my Da was working,Dad was moving in,Dustin was 17 helping around the house taking care of the little ones I was- am the rebel sneak out have fun I am rebellious because well I need the attention that I don't get but then again I never got the attention so why do I need it

"Azure what you writing about?" Pj asks in his Boston accent I look up at him

Pj blue/green eyes brown hair the messy hairstyle (Avan Jogia)

"Writing more for my book." I answer closing my journal he wheels himself over to me

"I just got back from therapy," Pj tells me

"how's that going?" I ask looking over at my brother then back to him

"my legs are getting stronger,my instructor is gay,they think I can leave next week," Pj explains running his hand though his messy hair

"that's great,I get out Monday," I tell him I grab his hand using my other one to sit up

"then we can go on a date?" Pj questions I look straight into his eyes "yes of course I'd love to." I smile

2 week later

Pj and I have been on 4 dates since he got out of the hospital I'm getting ready for our 5th date now I put on black ripped skinny jeans, a XXVI gray tank top on with a white undershirt,my supra high tops I go to my closet grab a beanie I run to my toilet putting on perfume I take my leather jacket off my bed shutting my door I go to the main toilet brushing my teeth I go over to Dax and cuddle him

"Finn take care of Dax," I tell him grabbing my keys

I put on my leather jacket walking down the hallway I get to my motorcycle I take off my beanie putting it in my pocket going to the park going over the speed limit by 7 but no one will know I park my bike taking off my helmet I put on the beanie I take the keys of the ignition the helmet on the handle bar might want to add its like 8 p.m. I get off my bike I see one other vehicle a Ford truck black and white I look over at the picnic area I see fairy lights hung up all over

I see Pj on top of the longest slide I walk closer to him he slides down wrapping his arms around me I see a few people on the other side of the playground with cameras

"I've missed you," I whisper I kiss his cheek he is about 5'11 the same height as my Da or at least around the same height I pull away he grabs my hand pulling me to a picnic basket on a blanket with torches around it I sit down

Your new never met you already want to be with you forever maybe it's love maybe it's chance

Song lyrics pop into my head he takes out 2 sandwiches

"this is beautiful," I grab his hand

"not beautiful as you," Pj moves his hand to my face "thanks," I look at him with a smile

"will you be my girlfriend?" Pj comes closer to me

"Pj kiss me," I tell him moving closer

"and I would love to be your girlfriend," I peck his lips we talk about anything and everything he picks me up bride style walking over to his truck he sets me down on the flat bed he jumps up next to me cuddling me at about 1 a.m.

I sit on his lap he puts his arms around my waist I kiss his cheek and take a picture making sure I get the stars in it posting it on Twitter and ins that says beautiful night (with a star Emoji)

"I better go I have to go to the Studio tomorrow or today," I tell him jumping off the very clean truck

"see you Saturday," Pj tells me I get on my bike

"or later today," I take off my beanie and switch it with my helmet I put in ear buds turning on 5 seconds of summer put the keys in the ignition starting it up

I go home going over the speed limit again but this time by 10 I go straight to my room after I lock the front door

I change into basketball shorts and a big shirt I look at it closer it's Shawn's shirt I go into the living room

I see Finn laying on the couch with Dax on his chest I take a picture of them I pick up Dax putting him in his room the crib that hardly gets used I go to the toilet take a picture because of the light in the room I got to my room lay down in bed pull the covers to my shoulder

does Pj like me or it just because of my fame Pj is definitely different from Shawn Pj has a kid personality I wonder how long it will last I like him but he...he just got me thinking. I cry I shove my head in my pillow and cry till I fall asleep