Shadow Whispers | Poetry

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 10. why are you so mean?

sometimes i get this funny feeling
that maybe you like my being
i always get my hopes up
which you later completely snap

i can't keep on doing this
wasting every single wish
for a single little kiss
and your attention always to miss

why do you seem interested sometimes
but then commit those unbearable crimes
the ones of destroying me piece by piece
you spread in me like a disease

and why do you only talk like that
can't you about anything else chat
it's not really funny anymore
say something else i implore

you said you care about me
but (unfortunately for you) i was warned by the sea
not to believe any of your lies
but i still never want to realise

my constant need of you
makes me blind on cue
the mermaids become mad
at how naive i look and get sad

i don't ever fully get you
you always act out of the blue
your moves are so unexpected
that make me misdirected

one day you send first and yap
the other refuse your mouth to unwrap
one day you show me you actually like me
the other you gift me tears and a bruised knee

you put effort but then you do not
it's like you take it back on the spot
i feel crazy for thinking i could stand a chance
but there are times when you feed that dance

the dance of thoughts in my head
that keep me awake on my bed
roaming my mind like a ghost
and i am nothing but a used host

but i guess there is no why
that question will never land and just fly
i guess you like playing with my heart
because there's no way you didn't know that

my friends tell me you are mean
but they don't know you as clean
as i did in the past eleven years
when you brought me nothing but joyful tears

at first i thought you were being rude as a joke
that it was your way of flirting, I mean, to poke
you don't treat me like a friend anymore
now you act as if I'm your hoe like those four

people change i am told
but i really want your story to unfold
you became a different person
there must be an important reason