Shadow Whispers | Poetry

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 08. I can't hate you

I was obsessed with the idea of you
for way more than a year
that being given what claims to be true
doesn't even feel real

my smile hates you
my ears hate you too
my nose hates you
my laughs hate you too

my face hates you
my teeth hate you too
my mouth hates you
my arms hate you too

my body hates you
my legs hate you too
my stomach hates you
my friends hate you too

my character hates you
my clothes hate you too
my liver hates you
my insecurities hate you too

everyone that hears about you from me
hates you and tries to make me
but my heart doesn't hate you
i cannot hate you

i cannot let myself hate you
after all those years of trying to be in your view
i simply won't let it happen
because my world would be over all of a sudden

who am i without worshipping your entire existence
everyone would call insane my persistence
but I am so used to liking you
that now I can't just stop out of the blue

I don't feel like myself without my special crush
my life would completely crash
you're everything i talk about
which usually turns into shout

i just think I didn't deserve what you did
my friends talking to you forbid
why don't you just tell me what I did wrong
for you to be so vile all along

how could you be so cruel
and sensitive all at once
are you actually that manipulative
or just really really dumb

I try so hard to find the reason
of your actions in the dark
but I fail every single time
just like we fell apart

It's so crazy to me how
some years ago I would fell
and you immediately caught me
while now you are the one making me fall and hit the ground

why are you treating me like this
has this been going on since we were little kids
that could never be true
you used to be so pure

you are laughing at me
something I am unable to believe
a person can't change that much
you can't treat people like your lunch

what happened to you
that ruined your view
are you alright
I bet you cry at night

why can't you just sit down
and try not to have a frown
so that we can sort it out
in order to get back to the cloud

keep in mind I'll always be here
no matter what I hear
I know you did me wrong
but unlike you, I am strong

my shoulder will be there to lay on
since I am aware something has been going on
your tears I will wipe off
and make you from laughing, cough

I know life hasn't treated you good
But remember, people are not your food
you should know we are all simple humans
that's why i'll try to keep you safe in my hands

anyone reading this will think I am dumb
but from your opinions I've grown numb
I am unable to poison my heart with so much hatred
I refuse to be like those to whom I am unfortunately related

stas here!

be ready for lots and lots of poems because i got my heart destroyed #emo #brawken #wap