Shattered

Chapter 10

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My head hurts, I can't feel my legs. I try to move but then remember, where I am.

His hands wrapped around my waist. I'm laying in Theo's bed.

That was the best night I had but I'm terrified. I almost said I love him. Is it too soon to do this yet?

Suddenly his hand moves.

"Hey, how did you sleep?" he asked.

I jumped, didn't expect him to be awake.

"Wow, calm down. Are you scared? Your heart is racing."

"Haha, you just caught me out of guard. I thought you were still asleep."

"Oh, okay."

"I slept well. Then I woke up."

"What do you mean?"

"Is it too soon? I literally almost confessed my love to you yesterday."

"Are you scared of the idea of us?"

"No, it's not that. Well, maybe. I don't know. I've never been to someone this close. I will get attached way too soon. What if something goes wrong. What if I get scared and run. What if you leave me. At the end of the day, people will talk. I have reputation. Horrible one."

  "So what? We're young, we can live however we want."

  "I have attachment issues. I'm petrified that you'll leave me. Will you?"

  Theo laughs awkwardly, I see anxiety sweat on his forehead. I made him uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry, didn't mean to make you uncomfortable," I said.

  "No, it's okay. But I don't know. I'm not psychic, I can't predict future but we can live the present, forget the past and wish for better future."

  My face lightens up, my facial muscles relax, I have a smile on my face now. I hug him. We lay in the bed for sometime, I even fall asleep again.

I wake up to him looking at me while brushing my hair with his hand. I look straight into his green eyes. Damn, I love green eyes. "You got your birthday present early," I told him.

"What?"

"Remember? The first time we were texting each other you said that maybe you wanted me for your birthday."

  "Oh! But if I remember clearly, it wasn't just one-sided wish."

  "Obviously it wasn't. I wanted you since forever."

  "Since forever?"

  "Amm, not exactly since forever but close. Well, not close. Eh, whatever."

  "No, not whatever. I'm actually interested, why you decided to approach me? When did you see me for the first time?"

  "It's nothing interesting."

  "I still want to hear it."

"The first time I saw you was at the airport."

"The airport?"

"Yes, I remember clearly. I was flying alone for the first time and I was so fucking scared. I pass the security check and went to the bathroom. I opened the door and there I saw you. I was so mesmerised that I didn't even realise I was at the men's bathroom. You turned around, probably to why am I not closing the door and you saw me and made a really confused, could even say, disgusted face. I came back to life and turned RED. My face was cooking itself. Hahaha. Then I watched you the whole time we were waiting for the departure. When we sat in the plane, I lost sight of you and thought I'd never see you again. But then new school year approached us and there you were. Honestly, I didn't really care by that point but then I dreamt of you and developed a huge crush. That's how my brain works."

"Damn, I actually had no idea. I don't remember seeing you before this school year."

"You have no memory of seeing me?"

"No."

"Disapointing."

I'm sad. But who cares, at least he knows me now.

"I probably should go. I hope this is not the last time we sleep together," I said that and then immediately realised, how that sounded. "Ah, I mean sleeping in one bes. Sleepover. Amm... Unless... I should go."

Yes, I want to sleep with him. Badly. Sleeping next to him is tempting me to attempt something. Especially when I'm ovulating. I feel like I need it. But I won't initiate anything until he does.

If he was any other guy (ahem, Jordan), I wouldn't be virgin. We literally slept in the same bed, I was wearing his clothes, no one's at home- perfect condition.

  "Unless what?" Theo's voice breaks the dead silence that I used for thinking and overthinking.

  "You know what I mean. Unless you want to fuck." That wasn't so discreet.

  "I wouldn't complain."

  "What the fuck is this answer?"

  "I'm sorry. I just don't know what to say."

  "I'm going home. Bye."

  "Maybe don't."

  "What?"

  He comes closer to me and grabs me by the waist from behind. And whispers to my ear, "do not go home."

  I feel something hard touching my thigh and that's definitely not his leg. He turns me around and starts kissing me. At first, it's just little cute kisses but then his tongue gets his way into my mouth and we start french kissing. We slowly move to his bed and fall. We get into a comfortable position all while kissing. His kissed leave my lips and start going lower to my neck and collarbone. Then he takes his shirt off of me and starts kissing lower until his lips reach my bra. He puts his hands behind my back and unhooks it, throws it on the floor. Next, he takes off his shirt and then his other clothes and I do too.

  We move with the flow. Our bodies are together, they are interlinked. He knows where to put his hands, where to kiss to make me feel like I'm levitating. He hits all thw right spots, my body is shaking, shivering. We are breathing heavy, along with those heavy breaths I moan and scream, and shout, and let it all out. My nails are scratching his back and his lips are leaving me hickeys everywhere on my body. With every move I THIRST for him. Now that I've got a taste of this, I could never let him go.

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