Shattered

Chapter 11

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New week, the same cycle. It's monday and I'm fucking tired. I still think of Theo every single minute of the day, his lips, his eyes, his hand, his body. I don't know how am I going to focus at school today with all of that on my mind.

As I'm going to the class, I see Lolita walking. I should ask why she bailed on me.

"Hey!!!"

"Hi, Sheila," she says lifelessly.

"What's going on? What happened? You were dressing up with me on facetime for Jordan's party and then disappeared."

After a minute of silence I see Lolita's eyebrows slowly scrunching and her eyes are starting to get watery.

"Lolita, what's wrong."

She starts sobbing uncontrollably. I get lost and don't know what to do. I'm bad at comforting people. I just hug her and don't say anything, hoping she'll calm down and open up.

We are standing in the middle of the hallway. Finally, I feel like she's calming down.

"We should sit down."

We sit down on a bench nearby.

"Tell me what is going."

"I'm sorry for leaving you, I'm really sorry."

"It's okay."

"I promised to tell you what happened between me and Kelcey and forgot that too. I'm a bad friend, I'm sorry."

"What are you talking about? You're a great friend. I'm not bad at you at all."

"Okay, so during the winter break we spent so much time together with Kelcey. We went skating, skiing, to many restaurants. It was great. But then she changed. It happened so suddenly. But after breaking up with her I realised she had been changing slowly all along."

She breaths in deeply.

"Basically, she started insulting me. At first it was nothing, just little jokes about my lipstick being a bit to dark or my hair being messy. But the she started hating on my body. She said I was eating too much, my jawline was horrible. I looked horrible because my posture was bad. It wasn't only about physical features. She also started calling me dumb. We used to talk about the books we had read all the time, but then she started hating on books I read. She said "those little books are definitely showing your mentality"."

"One time during our date at this fancy restaurant, she went to a bathroom. I waited and waited for her to come back, she had been there for almost 30min. I was getting woried, so I decided to check on her. I went into the bathroom and heard moans. They weren't any random moans, it was Kelcey. I immediately ran out of there. I didn't even confront them, I just took my stuff and ran home."

"After that I didn't have any motivation to speak with her, I just ghosted. She tried reaching me but I ignored, blocked her, actually."

"On friday she came to my house unannounced, barged in like some sort of criminal. She started shouting, crying, begging me not to leave her, explain everything. We ended up making out and hooking up."

"What?!" I shouted with my eyes wide open.

"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??"

"What? What? What?"

I guess the saying there's only one step from hate to love proves to be right in her situation.

"I know I fucked up. When she looked at me with those familiar eyes, I forgot all the hatred."

"What happened after that? I assume there isn't a good ending."

"You're right. After we sleep together, we talked, well not exactly, it was mostly gaslighting and yelling. I told her what happened at the restaurant and then she snapped. She started yell it was my fault, I was a horrible girlfriend, she accused me of using her as just experimental girlfriend. She also said I was vicious for luring her to my bed and trying to force an apology from her, I didn't deserve. She dressed up and left leaving me naked both externally and internally. I couldn't move all weekend, I was imprinted in the same place she had left, I felt so lifeless. I feel so dumb for caring so much."

We skipped class and she cried on my shoulder the whole time. I did everything in my capacity to comfort her.

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I'm so sorry for not updating for this long, but I'm back now and I'll try to write a little more.  xoxo