I was scared but I did it anyway. I was scared, but I did it in spite.
I was scared;
of; what?
To fail?
To look stupid?
What does that even mean? 'To look stupid' -To look human?
To look unsure? Why do we;
Why Do I,
Equate unsure-ity, inexperience,
Hesitantancy;
With stupidity?
Is it because of, how our education system programs us to beat ourselves up when we fail? That could be a reason...
Or is it my insatiable thirst for perfection? Is that it?
The quest for something unachieveable.
"Perfect".That word stirs something in me.
I don't know what it is.
There's nothing wrong, not a thing, with wanting to do well.But, some days, I'm so scared, of looking; Human, I don't even try at all.
And I know how awfully pessimistic that sounds. However, I can't ignore that feeling.
I've told myself, "I shouldn't." And, perhaps, it's the perfectionism speaking.
God I want to throw that feeling-This feeling, off of a cliff. Brush my hands clean and never deal with that again. It's weird.
Fighting against our feelings. Being human. No matter how strange it may be some days. I wouldn't rather be anything, or anyone else. No matter what.
I'm glad and grateful to be me.
.
.
Perfection, fear-of-failure; Those are really the same thing.Nerves, shaky palms and voice and all.
I overcome them in the end. If not immediately, eventually. Because; My passion and Tenacity, curiosity, vigor— I have many things to say about myself.
We all do.
They always—win.
They are what beats the fear, every; time.
Or it could be my worry of getting "to comfortable".
Either way; that, or my love and passion; I'm glad I have that drive. My conviction.
Thank you to my mind,
My body,
My soul;—I'm tempted; here, to end this with:
"You a real one."—
You are.Furthermore, most importantly:
I love you.
I am grateful; beyond measure for you.— A love letter from yourself.
—Shilopink7/4/2024
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Wisdom and Words; The Human Experience - By Shilopink
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