Help Me

Stay

Lucy's POV
Tim: ready to go?
Lucy: yeah
Tim: let's go
we walked out too his truck and we headed to his house where the baby sitter and Daisy were. It was the same girl Emma from my apartment building. Speaking of my apartment... I can go back but, I don't feel like I would be safe there. Not after everything that happened, but... with Tim... i'm safe... I know I shouldn't feel that way about a boss but I can't help it. I don't know what it is, whether it's... feeling for him.... or just someone i've attached to because i know Im safe and I know Daisy is safe. When I saw a therapist at the station, I told her I don't feel safe going home and I feel safer staying at Tim's. She asked it was Tim's place or that it was Tim. She said sometimes after a traumatic event, the first person that shows great compassion to a domestic violence victim, they grow attached to. And I really kind a ... hope that's not the case.
Tim: you ok there Luce?
Lucy: oh, uh yeah, sorry just zoned out
Tim: ok
he nodded his head but looked concerned.
Tim: you're awfully quiet, normally you'd have talked my ear off
Lucy: ... just tired
Tim: Lucy, I know you better than that.
Lucy: I can go back to my apartment now...
Tim: that's great... but...
Lucy: but... never mind
Tim: what?
Lucy: .. well, I uh... I don't want to... you know... impose on your space and take your house any longer..
Tim: Lucy, I'm happy to have you over any time, you don't need to go back yet if you're not ready, and... I think that It would be best for your mental health. But, you don't need to, you can do whatever you want to
Lucy: really? You mean... I could stay a little longer?..
Tim: of course, you're the best guest i've had to be honest and that includes my own sister
Lucy: That's just one of my many gifts
I said laughing and he smiled at me. He turned into his driveway and grabbed our work bags and opened my car door for me. He used his keys to enter the house and we saw Emma in the kitchen sweeping.
Tim: Hey Emma, where's Daisy?
Emma: Hi, you must be Tim, Daisy is asleep in the bedroom. It's nice to meet you
Tim: Nice to meet you too.
Lucy: I'm going to go check on her and grab the cash, thanks so much Emma
Emma: any time Lucy, she is an absolute angel.
Tim: that she is
I smiled at both of them before heading into Tim's bedroom. I saw Daisy and kissed her forehead. She was sound asleep on the blow up bed and looked so cute and comfortable. I walked to his nightstand where I had some extra cash I took from my drawers at the apartment. I kept that money away from Mark in case something like this ever happened. I grabbed her $70 because she watches her for 4 hours and she deserved it. I always tip her, she asks $5 an hour but in today's world, that's nothing. I walked out money in hand and saw Emma already had money in her hand.
Lucy: Here you go Emma
Emma: Oh, Lucy, Tim already paid me
Lucy: Tim, I can't let you do that, it's my daughter
Tim: and who's house is this
Lucy: Tim, please just let me pay
Tim: I gave her $70 and that's that, she was in MY house, cleaning MY dirty house, watching MY friends daughter, I think I win that
Lucy: that last one doesn't count because she's MY daughter
Tim: oh well two still beats one so, goodbye Emma, thank you so much for watching Daisy and have a nice night.
Emma: no thank you guys, every time I watch Daisy, I get paid way more than I ask and I appreciate it so much
Lucy: of course, have a good night
Emma: you too
she left the house and I looked at Tim
Tim: What?
Lucy: you know what, you shouldn't have paid. You shouldn't have had to deal that big of a tip
Tim: I wanted too, and besides how much money is in your hand right now?
Lucy: ...$70...
Tim: so i guessed it spot on, and if you were going to pay her that, I could've too.
Lucy: ok, ok, fine you win
Tim: I know, now, you hungry?
Lucy: not really
Tim: and you didn't eat at lunch today, so you don't really have a choice, it's for your own good. Unless you really aren't hungry and had a big breakfast which I know you didn't
Lucy: I didn't really feel hungry until you mentioned it
Tim: uh huh, now what do you want
Lucy: whatever you'll eat with me
Tim: uh uh, see I ate at lunch, you didn't
Lucy: it feels weird being the only one eating
I said with a sad tone to persuade him to eating. We slowly walked towards the kitchen together while talking
Tim: fine, now what do you want
Lucy: I asked you first
Tim: no, see I asked you then you asked me
Lucy: no, last i checked you asked me "you hungry" not "what do you want to eat"
Tim: so you can remeber that but not what you ate yesterday?
He said mocking what I had told him before
Lucy: oh be quiet
I said laughing
Tim: now, what do you want
Lucy: give me options
Tim: homemade pasta, Chinese food, pizza, or literally any other take out you could think of
Lucy: umm, i don't know give me two options
Tim: I just have you some!
Lucy: I need less
Tim: fine, Chinese or pizza... or other take out
Lucy: that's cheating
Tim: just saying if you don't like those two options, we can have literally anything
Lucy: ok, ok, let me think..... chinese?
Tim: why are you asking me, I'm fine with whatever you want Lucy. is that what you want?
Lucy: I think....
Tim: ok then Chinese food it is
we ordered our food. We both got chicken fried rice and one egg roll. We both weren't that hungry so we expected leftovers.
Tim: let's go sit on the couch
Lucy: ok
He sat down and patted the couch cushion next to him. I sat down and he put on the TV.
Tim: what do you want your watch?
Lucy: I picked the food, you pick what we watch, deal?
Tim: fine.. hmm, want to watch true crime?
Lucy: is that even a question?
Tim: ok then
he started an episode and when our food got there we argued over who would pay. He ended up paying and we both sat down at the couch with our food.
Tim: you look nervous, you ok?
Lucy: umm, i've never eaten at the couch before, and I don't want to spill
Tim: wait, like you've never ever eaten dinner on a couch before?
Lucy: nope, my parents were strict about it and so was... mark...
Tim: ... sorry Luce...
Lucy: it's ok, because now I can have this universal experience with one of my closest friends and remember it forever
Tim: oh so I'm one of your closest friends now?
he said smiling and happy
Lucy: well yeah, we see each other literally 24/7, we are able to talk about anything comfortably, you knew about Daisy first, ...mark first..., how Daisy was born first... And, I feel like I can confide in you about anything!
Tim: anything?
Lucy: anything, i mean, you know everything about my life
Tim: not everything
Lucy: Like what?
Tim: that's the thing, I can't tell you because I don't know
Lucy: or you're too scared to say it because it's about mark, my parents, or Daisy's dad
Tim: i mean...
Lucy: it's fine just ask
Tim: well, how did Daisy's dad you know, get you pregnant? I know he raped you but...
Lucy: how did I get in that position...
Tim: yeah... you don't have to answer that
Lucy: it's fine... I was at a college party at a friends house and I left my drink unattended. I walked away and came back, finishing my drink. Someone slipped a drug in my drink and I didn't notice. I got tired because of it and headed to a bedroom. The guy that did it was watching the rooms to see who went in there and followed them shortly after. I crashed in her bed and woke up with him... well... raping me. I tried fighting him off but I was loopy and weak. I was late so I took a test and bam, pregnant.
Tim: did they catch the guy?
Lucy: most rape cases never make it court and neither did mine. That's part of the reason I became a police officer.
Tim: if you don't mind me asking, what about your parents?
Lucy: my dad shut me out for a while until he realized it wasn't my fault. My mother... she never forgave me and it was the last straw when I enrolled in the academy. That's around the same time I met Mark and she kicked me out. So i bought an apartment with Mark and that's right around when the abuse began. He just... i couldn't leave, i had no where to go... he convinced me it was my fault and that's how I got stuck. I believed him.
Tim: I'm... so sorry Lucy... You didn't deserve any of that, no matter what anyone tells you
Lucy: thanks
I said forcing a smile and he gave me a hug. We finished our true crime episode and It got late. I was tired so we took turns changing and brushing our teeth. He showered while I helped clean up, he didn't exactly know I was cleaning until he got out though. We said goodnight and I headed to his bed. I fell asleep and about an hour or two later I woke up to a horrible nightmare. I was shaking and crying and it felt so real. I was breathing heavily when I heard Tim come in the room.
Tim: Hey, you ok?
I couldn't breathe and was panicking. He rushed to my side
Lucy: I-I c-can't-
I couldn't even speak I was so scared I didn't know what was going on.
Tim: Hey, hey, calm down
He went to rub my back and I flinched hitting it away
Lucy: n-no
I said through tears
Tim: sorry, can you breathe for me
Lucy: n-no
Tim: hey let's try and relax. Okay?
I nodded my head yes.
Tim: alright, breathe in.... breathe out... breathe in... breathe out
Lucy: i-it hurts
I said crying. You know that feeling where you're just crying and scared and you can't catch your breathe so it hurts to breathe? And then you just can't talk, that was what I was feeling. I kept crying and struggling to breathe.
Tim: hey, it's me Tim. It's ok, hey, everything's going to be alright
Lucy: i-i-
I couldn't make out any words and I was just so scared and didn't know what to do. Tim slowly lifted his hand up and started to rub my back. I was fine now because I remembered I was with Tim, and he wouldn't hurt me. I calmed down a little.
Lucy: T-tim?
Tim: yeah Luce?
Lucy: ca-can you c-come s-sit with m-me?
Tim: sure
He got up off of the floor, he was kneeling over to my bedside, and sat next to me in the bed. I laid down on his chest crying but not as much as before and he rubbed my back after pushing the hair out of my face.
Tim's POV
it hurt me to see Lucy so sad. I hate to admit it, but she was like my best friend. I haven't talked to Angela as much recently but Lucy... she's been here and I've been able to really connect with her. I rubbed her back and she finally calmed down. I started to get up out of the bed.
Tim: Here, I should go, you need your sleep
Lucy: o-ok
I started to leave the room when I heard Lucy'a voice.
Lucy: Tim?
Tim: yeah Luce?
Lucy: can you stay with me please?

Authors note: sorry for such a short part, I'm trying to spread the story out because I don't know how long I should continue the story and when I should end it. If you have any suggestions, please comment below!