Giving up is not my choice and it will never but thinking it will be possible is my greatest downfall. Gusto ko ding kumawala sa mga rehas na nasa katawan ko. Wala na ba talaga akong karapatan na diktahan siya sa mga nangyayari sa kanya. Paano nalang kung may ginawa siya kalokohan, madadamay pa kami ng anak ko. I'm doing this to my family though.
Living behind this walls between us is like crazy to be handle and I think there is no way out for me.
He walked out and leave me behind dumbfounded. Great as in Great. Pumunta nalang ako sa kwarto ni Sky at nakita ko naman siyang naglalaro. Lumapit ako.
"Do you want me to play with you?" Tanong ko.
"Sure mommy"
Naglaro kami ni Sky pero sandali lang dahil pumunta na ako sa kusina at nagluto nang panghapunan. Pagkatapos kong magluto ay pinatawag ko na si Dwight sa kasambahay. Ako naman ang pumunta kay Sky.
"Baby let's eat na." Tawag ko.
"Okay mommy."
Umupo kami sa upuan at wala padin si Dwight. Dumating ang kasambahay na pinapatawag ko kay Dwight.
"Ma'am, hindi daw po sasabay si Dwight sa inyo sa pagkain." Sabi nito.
"May gagawin ba siya?" I asked.
"Wala pong sinabi ma'am eh." She answered. I nodded to her and then she go away. I looked at my daughter and her eyes was sad. I feel bad to my baby.
"Mom I really want to eat together with dad because I so much miss him but it's okay. I understand, probably dad is just tired." She sadly said that make my heart feel bad. Maybe because of me, because we had a fight earlier. It's my fault.
"Baby its okay your daddy is just tired, he had a long flight though. And we will go to your daddy after we finish eat."
"Ok mom."
Nagsimula na kaming kumain ng anak ko. Nang matapos kami sa pagkain ay iniligpit ko na ang pinagkainan namin at hinugasan. Pagkatapos ay binihisan ko na ng pantulog si Sky.
Hawak kamay ko si Sky papuntang kwarto ng ama niya. Nanginginig akong kumatok ng dalawang beses sa pinto. I'm scared of going in Dwight's room because the memory in here is still nightmares to me, everytime he beats me.
"Mommy you are trembling. Are you okay?" Nag alalang tanong ni Sky. I smiled at her.
"Baby I'm okay." I said her with reassuring smile.
People tend to say they are okay even in the inside they are not okay. They want to keep their feelings because they don't want their love ones to be worried. I know they want to explode but sometimes if we will say our true feelings they will just laugh or ignored us. We are just a victim to our own emotion.
"Okay mommy."
I opened the door and we saw Dwight that is topless. I guess he just finished bath. He looks so sexy and he is so handsome and the biceps. Oh my gosh, stop Calista your like a pervert.
My gosh. Stop.
"Tsk." I said him saying. Its embarrassing.
Tumakbo sa kanya si Sky at nagpabuhat.
"Daddy why did not you eat with us?" Tanong ni Sky.
"I already eat." He said
"Ok daddy." Sabi ni Sky.
Binaba na ni Dwight si Sky dahil magbibihis muna ito. Umupo kami sa sofa, kandong ko si Sky habang naghihintay sa ama niya. Sandali lamang ay dumating na si Dwight na nakabihis.
"Daddy I want to sleep in your room with mommy. Please daddy." Sky said that shocked me. I don't want to sleep with Dwight. He doesn't like me. It will gonna be disgusting with him. I will refuse. It's okay that its just with her dad.
